May Everything Come through

2008-07-03T07:46:00.000-07:00

Sorry for inconveniences, but i have changed my blog. Get the new link from me.

2008-06-16T07:15:00.000-07:00

Today is tiring.My right ankle was actually getting better, but just when i started dancing again on Sunday, it started paining again. My mother said that this's a sign a overwork. I think so too, my body weight is too heavy for my legs:)

Going out for bowling tomorrow. Finally, i am having some fun during the holidays. Have only watched 2 movies which is like SO little. Have bio, one physic ws and 2 chem ws left. Quite fast i think, for me. Didn't study much, cause everyday have been occupied by ballet that i haven had the mood to study. Everyday is like so tiring. But well, at least my homework is almost done thought it's like so slow compared to others. I am sorry, but i can only have the time to study when school reopens.

ROD coming, which is a good thing and a bad thing....

2008-06-03T07:52:00.000-07:00

Today's lesson was very tiring. I don't know how i am going to stand dancing 5 hours non-stop tomorrow. Better remember to buy something to eat, oops, feeling hungry now. My brother's having fever, let's hope he doesn't pass the virus to me.

Holidays are here and i have sort of officially passed out, i know i will miss NP, but well, i need to study and work hard, and about being a CI, well that's hard to say. Maybe after ROD, i may not get in touch with NP anymore, sometimes i wonder, why am i so so obedient?

Have really nothing much to say, just want to type for fun only. oh, Indiana Jones yesterday was terrific, terrific as in it was funny interesting and not boring. I think i will give it a 3 stars out of 5. Not bad, but Henry Jones the 2nd is a bit old don't you think? Though he's still quite good, but he isn't that good. And Henry Jones the 3rd is a bit over exaggerated i think, his acting. Maybe it would have been a 4 if well, i don't know, just feels like a 3. But if you want to laugh your guts out, go and watch the movie. It's quite nice.

Feeling very tired now and i slept the whole afternoon. Siao right? Just because of a 2 and a 1/2 hours of dancing, and i still haven finished my piano hw. Tsk Tsk, holidays are no different from normal school days just that there are not that much tests and exams. Ciao then, going to continue doing phw.

Spiggy Holes..

2008-05-28T06:57:00.000-07:00

I have been super touched today. As you know, i failed my amaths terribly, so for the amaths mock exam, i would have to hand in my paper when everyone else who had passed need not to! I know, it isn't fair, but that's life right? And you know what, Shu Qin, Jun Yu and Bao Qin can actually go home after they had finished doing, but they stayed back! To do what? To help me with my questions!!!! And i am super duper triple touched just now when Jun Yu used such a nice tone to teach me! It's my first time hearing that. And Shu Qin too!!!! She came over and asked me if i needed help!! It feels so nice to have friends around you right? And not forgetting Michelle and Yee Ting too who always stayed by me no matter what i do. So..... i feel very very touched today, and you know what i feel happy!!! Yupz, as though there's nothing in the world that will bowl me over as you know what? I have friends around me, friends whom i will always be proud of. Thanks! Thanks! Thanks!!!!

But of course i will also have some people around me who had made me disappointed over and over again, but well, think of what you have and not what you have lost. Haha, o'level chinese passage. Sounds famililar? Haha, it's from that paper. Nevertheless, i had never felt so happy today. And i ate ice-cream and claimed back my $5. Haha, i am happy, Happy, HAPPY!!!

Thank you. Thank you. Thank you, for making my day.

Tomorrow, though will be a different story........ (Haha, not to be pessimistic or what, but yah, tomorrow may be a different day. No matter what, it will be over de, no matter how good or bad. Will get over de......(Haha, learnt this from a book too, chinese book. the 7-11 book.))

La Femee.....French

No. of Hahas, in the passage: (including the one in this sentence)

6........

Maybe i am related to the no. 6, i hope so, you know o'level? Hehe

Not wanting to add another of the word above, i used hehe, so as not to ruin my chance of being related to 6..........

ok, i can't stand it anymore

HAHA!!!!!

2008-05-20T06:38:00.000-07:00

Tremendous Shock Today. I found out that i was not only the last in class, 43/43, but out of the whole cohort of sec 4s, i was the 209. Shocked? Yar, and i thought i did better compared to CT 1.

I told my mother of course and you know what she said? This was expected, how can you score well when you don't study at all, when you only study last minute? You said that you can only study last minute, then?

Feel really very disappointed and sad. Now my mother is going to keep blaming on my CCA and that because of it, i am finding no time to study. But personally, it's not my CCA that is affecting. I still study, just that i don't study that hard. I don't think my CCA has anything to do with my studies, but who will believe me?

I have to find the motivation to study, but where?? I can't just sit down and study, well maybe i can, but my mind will wander around. So how am i supposed to study well like that? But i want to score well, my goal is to go to NJ which is like 5 points and below? Can i do it? I really want to go to that school. Don't know why, but suddenly fell the urge and the feel to go there. Can i do it?

I have disappointed my mother greatly and suddenly i realised, i loved her a lot. No matter what she does. As she do things for my own good. Maybe in a harsh way, but i love her and am glad that she's my mother. I want to do well, to let my mother be proud of me as she did when i was in P6. Can i?

Please help me go through another 5 months of intensive study. O'level Chinese coming on 26, Please let me score an A1, please help me show the hypocrite that actually i can do it if i want to. Please give me the motivation when i need it.

Thank You.

2008-05-14T07:24:00.000-07:00

Got back all of my papers already, and my L1 R5? 16. Not too good, not very bad, but well, it isn't good enough for someone who got 256 for PSLE. Must really work very hard if i want to go to a good JC and guess what? Chinese O'level coming soon. Stressed.

Today's my mother's birthday, went out to eat and 216? Around 253 there. Lols, the food was very bad, but well, we had fun.

She doesn't seem to be that satisfied with me, just keep thinking that i would do very badly, well i will try to prove her wrong, and show her my ability. I hope i can do it!

Tomorrow's NPCC day, let's hope everything goes well.

Pray

and

Pray.

2008-05-07T06:06:00.000-07:00

Exams are finally over today. Not that there's anything to rejoice about. I am going to fail my Amaths paper again today no matter how easy it was. Why? Because of my stupid carelessness. The paper is easy and because of don't know what reason, i was careless and lost about 20+ marks, which if my maths is correct, is a fail out of a 40 mark paper.

Suddenly feel so disappointed and sad again. It is an easy paper and i KNOW how to do the questions. Then why still i go and make those stupid mistakes. The blow is big and unacceptable. What i fear is when HE returns the paper, HE is going to say something again. Going school and having to take his lessons seem like a torture. Sometimes i wonder if my Maths would be that bad if i had went to another class. People say that he is effective, but maybe i don't fit well with his teaching method. Let's just hope for the best.

Common Tests was difficult during this time round and i studied like a week before everything. Feel so wasted, just when i was in the mood of studying hard, the papers are hard, except maybe Amaths which wasn't that surprising that it was easy. Just cannot accept that i am going to fail again and face the disapproval looks from everyone. You know when you aren't that well in your studies, people tend to look down on you? Especially in the a class where everyone is like so good? Maybe they don't show on the outside but you know from their expressions that they don't really like you. You know the feeling? Totally makes your self-esteem go down. HE does that all the time and i don't think he should have the right to let someone feel bad about herself. No one should have the right to let others feel ashamed for themselves.

Another bad news today. My mother don't allow my to be ** cause of my results. I don't know, i ignored her when she told me that. But i really don't know how i can persuade her. Will have another go during O'Level period.

Shocked.

Disappointed.

I just don't get it, isn't it my freedom to do what i want and like?

2008-04-23T06:48:00.000-07:00

Wah, i am damn pissed off le. Reminds me why i can't work with her. I don't know why, but no matter how hard i try to think it off, to try to forgive and forget, everything comes shooting back at double the speed. I really can't stand it much longer and telling my friends make me seem such a bad person. I can't accept others being so hypocrite, it's a bit too much for me to take it. At least if you want to do it, don't affect me, do it in your own way and don't affect me in any way.

School's tiring these days. I am like falling asleep for every lesson, but everybody's like that. They say it's the hot weather but i doubt so. Lesson don't really cover much these days, so should be quite ok, have been studying quite regularly, really want to score well then can be in NDP. But this kind of thing, who knows?

Nevertheless, i look forward to school. Studying home is so boring and going to school, thought lessons are boring, allows me time with my friends and for that i feel blessed and happy. Just have to remember this thing, nobody is perfect in this world, it's hard to change their character, so what can we do? Just try to learn and accept it. I can accept almost everything in the world, but for her attitude, i really can't stand it le. Stupid, if possible, i really hope she had a different position.

Ballet exam on Friday. Wish me luck, i really want to get a distinction, but most importantly, i hope i will do my best. The best part is the more important part.

KISS MY BOOK IS A GOOD BOOK. READ IT!!!!

A bit over, but it's a good book anyway.

2008-04-09T05:32:00.000-07:00

Today was quite a relaxing day. Went for the research thing in the morning and was damn boring. Lols, was really embarassed today cause my phone suddenly rang momentarily during the lecture as i had a message. The person was like talking about the fire alarm and he was like making those fire alarm noise and suddenly my phone gave that sound. Was really embarassed. But anyways, it's over.

The briefing was even worst. How can taking pictures be so long. Too cheerful, too serious, ok. That's the sequence of my photo-taking. Maybe not that long, but wah, the other schools are like.....forever. lols, exaggeration.

So what if i like to do everything? If you want to do it, just tell me. Many a times, i do everything because nobody wants to do it. If you want to do it, tell me. I will make sure you do it. You think i would like to do everything? Use your head, who would like to do that? If had a choice, i would definitely not do. But how? Nobody wants to do it, so who else can you find to do them. Be contented. If you not capable then just keep your mouth shut. Do it if you can, i won't stop you. But if you do it bad, i will make sure that you do and do until you get fed up.

Feeling so happy, cause i reunited with my best friend!! Haha, it feels so good to know what's between us. I will treasure you even more now. I am sorry also if i left you out too.

I don't feel like studying. I just want to sleep.

Getting to like the number 6 thought it's not significant anymore.

2008-04-07T07:06:00.000-07:00

I should have kept my mouth shut. Now everyone's thinking that i am showing off. Indeed, i am really happy, so that's why i can't stop myself from spilling everything. I am sorry that i hurted your feelings, but i really feel damn happy. Can you understand?

Sports Carnival was haish. Was sort of scolded by someone. I was shocked initially, cause i thought i really did fouled, being an unprofessional player and all. But it's sort of became anger later on. yes, i may have fouled some times, but the umpire didn't say anything, did they? If i had really fouled, they would have stopped me isn't it? Maybe i also have lots of strength and that's why i was rough. Thus, if i really did anything wrong, i apologise, but i believe, you should also apologise for shouting at me in the middle of the game. I may have had done something wrong, but i don't think i am the only one?

Feeling guilt all over now. Don't know how actually my physics test will go. Will definitely be a single digit. That's the result of being lazy. Better stop now le, need to finish bio ws.

Guilt.

Anger.

Happiness.

Finally.

NOT!!

2008-04-03T07:41:00.000-07:00

I realised that i am a lousy ****. Maybe i am good at admin, but i am not good at leading my followers. They argue with me like i am nothing, talk to me like i am their slave and all that i do is to just endure. After so many years, i am still like a stupid fool, listening to them and not stating my point clearly. I hope everything ends soon. I am really not good and leading those who are of the same age as me, i feel that it's not morally right for us to command our friends like they are our slaves and hence maybe of my bad leadership.

Sports carnival tmr. Looking forwards to it very much, will be very fun i think. then going for competition, just as supporter only, i but will be fun also. Lols, everyday like slacking but don't care lar, i will work hard, but maybe not today and tomorrow.

Excuses!! Everybody's giving excuses. I don't care already, I will do what i want and yes, i may be lazy, but that's who i am. Please accept me as that? I will work hard, but not all the time?

Nothing much, Let's hope i manage to do better as time passes. But i doubt i will be attending anymore parades. My next parade may be the ROD le.

The truth is hard to accept.

I can't believe we got so lousy, even worse then ---

2008-03-22T05:15:00.000-07:00

Today had been a bad day.

There's nothing much that i can do now other then to just complain to my friends. I can't stand the way she's getting all the attention when it's like so redundant. I can't stand her faking attitude and if you are the she who's reading this, i can only say, i can't forgive you. I am not a christian and though my religion teaches me that we should not always make judgements, we should always see two sides of the story before coming to a decision. But, i am afraid, i can't do that for you.

For four years, i had slugged and slogged for it. However, this is all that i get just when i am going to get it over with. I don't want credit, i just need acknowledgements, a pat on my back to encourage me to move on, to tell me that i had done well. I no need any rewards whatsoever, i just want appreciation. Is that too much?

I had tried to understand, i thought that i was just jealous of everything. But as days went by, i can't help but reassure my doubts. I really cannot endure you anymore.

My outer self seemed to accept you but deep down i really can't stand it anymore. I am sorry to say that, but if you really come back, i swear i won't think twice about it anymore.

I can't stand it anymore.

I have no choice but to say,

I ~~detest/hate~~ you.

Welcome to the real world. Flagstaff have a lot of problems today.

2008-03-17T07:47:00.000-07:00

wahhh. really can't stand the way they communicate. i mean is that how people of different standards communicate? it's a bit flirty don't you think? disgusting. and to know that the other party is complying too. too bad to be true.

Today felt very sleepy in school. my eyes were like closing every second. alright it closed for that few mins but i had no choice but to open it again. Haish, school life is so boring. Waiting very hard for Good Friday, go out with my HK friends. Yeh!!

Lols, lucky didn't spend much time on hw, most hw need not be handed in and the tests are not that early. really heave a sign of relief. Days are passing fast. it's already march. another about 4 trainings then we need to pass out le. besides me and et have to miss training on 11 april because of the bio thing. Haish.

anyways, on the bright side, cc ending this sat and maybe another week if we enter the finals. Maybe after that i can really settle down and start mugging, or rather study. and maybe after that i will become a better person and not really care about her anymore. Really hope for ROD, working together is damn tough with such a sucky attitude.

Talking in circles again.

I don't care.

Anything.

2008-03-13T08:47:00.000-07:00

Camp over. Finally.

Had not been sleeping for the past few days, slept for only fours hours during the whole camp. if you want to count the day before the camp, i had only sleep for 4 and a half hours for 3 whole days. Came back from home and slept all the way from 6pm to 8.30am. Pro right. lols.

Camp wasn't that fun, there weren't much time for planning of games and so to me, it was quite boring. Luckily, the Sec ones thought that it was quite fun, especially the war game. This was quite unexpected as war games was the game that we didn't prepare much. It was only a last minute briefing by me but it was still quite ok. haha, i think my debrief for the game benefited them. They seemed to have learnt a lot from the game. lols.

was disappointed on that thing. Haish, though i feel that i should have the thing, i feel very unfair, sometimes maybe life's like that. i can't have everything i want. maybe i just have to be satisfied with what i want. Maybe that's the only thing that i can do. There's nothing much i can do. was really disappointed when i heard that, but after a while, though i feel that's it's really unfair, it's still a reality.

Not sure if i have to skip music. Competition coming and good friday's a holiday, no time to train. Had not been training for long and don't know how's the result will be. Stupid, why must you change the date just because they have common test? No sense.

Blogging is actually bad. Just by blogging something, we may just offend someone and this may lead to big problems. that's why my posts are like so so not logical. No choice, i can't write out what i really feel, if i do so, i'm not sure how many people will start hating me, not that everybody like me though. hmm.

didn't do any hw until today. Don't care already. will take one step at a time.

Whatever.

Over,

Finally.

2008-03-04T05:15:00.000-08:00

It's very hard to get everyone to like you. to accept you for who you are and listen to you. Respect has to be earned, but sometimes scolding and scolding won't help, but not scolding at all also won't help. Balancing is that difficult.

Scored very badly for this common test. Failed 3 subjects, Amaths, Physics and Music and my fails are all marks that are like below 25 which is like such a lousy fail. I mean when you fail, it's like a few marks to pass right? how can i fail so terribly? And for my results that passed, are only results that just passed. I didn't get an A for any paper and the highest mark that i had got i think is only B4.

I really scored very badly during this test. Everyone's disappointed, myself, my mother. Nevertheless, it's only the first common test. i have to work hard and prove to everyone that actually i can do well if i want to. i want to score well, to let my parents be part of me. I spent lots of my parents money and now i can only score well to repay them.

Campcraft is still going as usual. But don't seem to be quite a happy mood. Feel so tired after everything.

I don't think they are working together well and personally, it's a bad example for us. Why do you tell us to be cooperative when you yourself isn't showing us that? Why do something and ask us to do the opposite, being like so noble? you think you are doing it for the sake for them but do you really think that what you are doing is actually too good to be true? I just don't believe in this kind of system, i just hope that everything would be over soon.

I want to sleep.

A lot.

2008-03-02T02:38:00.000-08:00

Read through both of my very good friends' blog. Suddenly realize that actually we may really be biased. Sometimes, these kind of things really don't need our attention. Why don't we just ignore everything and just continue with life? No matter what we do, we won't make any difference. It had been so obvious but the hint was not taken. She didn't change.

I know that it seemed bad to target somebody in your blog. So i shan't. I already did what i can and i won't do more. I just want to go in and finally win something with my hard work. I don't care what that person does, as long as we win, i don't care.

Maybe that's the only solution. We already did what we can and there's nothing else we can do. Just let that person be. If she wants to be like that, let her be. My teacher once said " You can hate and like this person for all i care, but you have to work with that person" I don't care if she likes me or not, just as long as she works with me.

I have to get immune,

or everything will be worst.

2008-02-28T04:31:00.000-08:00

I seemed to have failed music terribly. It was a great blow to me, though i knew that i would fail, it was disappointing and disturbing at the same time. Oh well, just have to work hard the next time round.

Today's training was ok. There was lightning and we had to end early. I want to have practice cause i keep doing wrongly, and i feel so scared for the day. I have to calm myself down or i would just go wrong.

Just kidding, anyways, very scared for my music marks. From my inference, i think i had gotton a very lousy mark. Just hope that it isn't a zero, but still.

Two more days left, nothing much we can do le. Just pray for the best. Everyone wants to win too. Just pray hard, do our best and hope for the best.

Going to career Fair tmr, wonder what it would be like. Hmm, i want to win scholarships, but that seemed to be very difficult. Tomorrow will go and see.

Shuqin changed new specs! and it's black? haha, is there a rhyme?

Today, i was double shocked.

2008-02-26T06:15:00.000-08:00

Today was another disappointment. Though i passed Bio, it was too bad to be true. i barely passed and i can only blame on myself again. I used to imagine what i would be like if i just study and study, i would be quite silent right? I would be moody and quiet right?

I am disappointed with my performance today. I seemed to not do anything well today and i earned a whole hand of blisters. Maybe not whole hand, but my hands are damn tired now. It's so difficult to make the thing stand properly.

There's little time left, i am disappointed and angry. I can't accept this kind of result, it's too much already. I wish to have more time and more energy. I didn't perform well today. I promised not to talk that much, but sometimes, just have to vent the frustration. I have to do better tomorrow.

Such a weird post.

I just want results.

I am tired (yawns)

Sleep.

2008-02-25T05:53:00.000-08:00

Everything's not going well these days. I failed my Physics and Amaths, and was heavily tormented mentally by the teacher as i only got 1 mark for the entire test. I know that it is really a very lousy mark and that getting scolded is only natural, but the fact that he hurt my pride is something that i would not forget. Nevertheless, he isn't that bad though.

I suffered 3 disappointments today. One that affected me tremendously, something that i was unable to accept. Whereas the other two was expected but nevertheless i expected something else. Life is so tough, there are many people to please, expectations for you and of course friendship problems. I no longer know who to trust, there are some people around me who are so fake. Sometimes i really wonder.

It's a tough life out there. You face with many challenges, many ups and downs and sometimes you don't really know how to pick yourself up. You endured all that tears from tearing, you keep on a brave front when all you want to do is just to have a nice sleep and forget everything. However, we have to face our problems or they just get worst and worst and the problem will keep pestering you again and again.

There seemed to be so many things to be done, but all that are not done properly. I wanted to be perfect but that seemed so difficult. There are many people to please and sometimes you just think, why do i have to do that?

But there's nothing that i can do and i had already thought it through. I must stop my fear now once and for all. If i feel that i had done nothing wrong, i shouldn't be afraid of gossips behind my back. If i do what is right, i should be safe.

Everybody say the same things, but are they really true?

I am Speechless.

2008-02-01T06:15:00.001-08:00

oooooo, blogging again. today's training quite ok. haha, feel that walk around from squad to squad like quite fun. but then it's like need to control a lot to not talk to the squad. haish. that one's a negative point bar. but no choice also. must do what i have to do and don't do what i not supposed to do.

tmr got hrc. don't really know if i looking forward or not. actually quite scared of the flying fox but if don't play like very what. i think i will play bar, but i supposed i will be real scared. lols, maybe a lot of people will to. but need to wake up very early tmr so will be damn tired, but no choice bar.

hmm, then weekend like no time to do hw like that. cause sunday got lesson too then a lot of tests lor. this year's life will be damn hard. jingle jingle bells bells. arghhh, nothing to write. haha.

doo loo boo hoo yoo koo goo woo, haha, all makes no sense, only the last one. aiya, i bored until like that. keep crapping here. going to end here le then. don't care le. heheh. muahahaha.

2008-01-23T07:58:00.000-08:00

busy busy busy, that's the only word which had been revolving around me these days. there are like tons of things to do and none of them done. haish, somebody help me.

anyways, assembly was about cyber safety today. blogging and internet. was quite interesting. learnt that we should not blog offensive remarks on my blog, then now feeling quite guilty already, but also not very sure what is their definition of offensive remarks. so i won't think so much now.

hmm, what should i say? there's test on friday, wish me luck. everyone wants to pass so much. i mean, duh?? of course. haish, then i think michelle's angry with me, cause i like very troublesome, don't agree with what she did. sorry michelle, i just thought it was right. please forgive me?

during the assembly, saw some of the fake posts made by the presenter. haha, very funny lor, i think i write a bit like the fake blogger. my blog like very fake also. nvm bar, i think blogging can also help to practise the speed of typing. haha, so actually i don't mind blogging. just sometimes there's nothing to blog about.

ohhhh, chinese new year coming. yeah ang bao!!! haha, lols, who don't like money? must start revising a bit le. common test coming. lols, but i think i will only read it like after chinese new year? lols. studying is so hard unless you have the mood.

that's all then. sleep tight everyone.

2008-01-16T05:35:00.000-08:00

had been very busy since the start of school. homeworks, tests, cca. haish, really very tired and busy everyday. what with the fact with relationships too, really feel very depressed. (note, i used depressed instead of stressed...lols)

everything had been so unpredictable these days. suddenly i find myself disliking the person so much. everything that the person do,i feel agitated, don't like it. i keep finding fault in her, trying to console myself that i'm actually better then the person. maybe i am, maybe i am not. the person's like trying so hard to make me mad. not telling me things and keeping me in the dark. is that right?

the person was seen to be arrogant, proud, act smart, maybe she was seen to be like that. i mean not that bad, but since i cannot find the right words.......but now, they start to feel there's a good change, maybe the person's not that bad afterall. and maybe i was wrong all the time. i apologise for spreading about you, how i loathed you, i am sorry, really truly sorry. i know i am selfish and unfair, but had you been fair? you disappointed me once and i'm not ready to forgive you yet. unless, you do something which allow me to see you in a different light once again.

i used to admire you, used to think that you are so damn good. but now, all i want to is be better then you. i'm jealous, jealous of you getting what you have, jealous at all the attention, jealous at how someone like you can be someone like that. i think about it. i hate myself for hating you. the barrier between us is formed and i don't think i am able to break the barrier easily without your help. i'm not ready to forgive, but i'm prepared to negotiate. please, i beseech you, do things after letting me know. that's the basic respect. respect me, and treat me as a human.

2007-12-24T09:22:00.000-08:00

long time never update liao. tmr going to genting, until 28. haish then a lot of things need to do, then don't know if the dateline will be met. but hey! i got confidence in them!!

haven done my hw. there are still tons to be done. hope that i would have the heart to do when i come back from genting. only left 5 days, but better then nothing......hehe

actually lots of things happened these few days, but all forgot liao. oh! i got a *********. haha, only like 4 person other then my family knows. hehe, next year, everyone will know de. meanwhile, i will just have to wait.

i realise that my post is a bit vague. like talking in circles. anyways. MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!! haha, though i will not be celebrating, but it's a nice season and hope that everyone will enjoy this day. it's the day for giving right?

still praying for my hw.

aw.....aw......aw.....

haha, i love this.

2007-12-13T07:31:00.000-08:00

Suddenly realised that my blogskin is quite dull and plain. but lazy to do new one also. today was quite tiring. also don't know why. woke up early again for piano lesson. went to causeway to take my blazer then went to meeting. felt that the meeting only i talk nia, i do myself at home also can. but still need to discuss for the sake of discussing.

tmr got wedding dinner then before that need to go to school. haish, then no time to do homework again. actually wanted to sleep in tmr and do some homework. but last minute need to go back to school. so tiring. these few days keep eating out. no money already.

actually not much to talk about. so then just stop here. really very tired. this holiday like even more slack then june holidays one. don't care lah....

2007-12-11T07:06:00.000-08:00

Looks can be deceiving. what is wrong with you, why is it that you changed so much? Do you care about it so much? Is it so important to you? Just behave lar you!

Today was quite slack. only when it started to rain did i enjoy myself. haha, only those who were with me today will know. so tired these days, then everytime sunburnt when i go out. now my arms and face are like so hot.

Very troubling things these days. don't really know what to do anymore. just hope that we can achieve what we want.

This post is so complicating, don't you think so.

I love G** **s*i**!

haha, only some will know this de...

2007-12-10T07:20:00.000-08:00

Today was quite fun. Really talked a lot today then so shiok lor. can really get used to this kind of life. Nothing much, but missed the outing. really very sry.

sometimes, really wonder why there are so many different kinds of ppl in the world. is it something that the people up there are trying to use this to test us? maybe they are trying to teach us to tolerate or maybe tell us to be truthful to them and us? i don't know lar, it's a complicated world.

Nothing much, very tired also. feel like my whole face is burning. must be the sun in the morning.

2007-12-09T07:08:00.000-08:00

Nothing much happened today. but just feel like blogging. i feel that i am a very simple person, don't really so much about things de so then my posts a bit typical and boring. what should i say leh???

actually really enjoy holiday a lot even if i don't really do my hw. did one jian bao today. not bad right? haha. read a book this after. sleeping freshman don't lie, something like that. and though the main character scott is a typical guy who does hw and all, i admire him a lot. cause his grades are good and has strong determination. his grades are like whoa and he's not those nerdy types. i really admire those people with good results cause i myself must try very hard to get it. but then i always daydream that i will be someone like that someday. i have dreams like i do well in school and all that. but that's everyone's dream i guess.

so i really hope i can be who i want to be. cause the job's like very difficult to get. then my height is just nice only. hope i don't get shorter.

going to try doing some more jianbao tmr. already cut out the articles, but don't have the mood. the jianbao also don't know write until what. hope that the score not that bad.

aw....aw....aw....aw.... haha, random again. hk friends will sure kill me if i do that again. but very fun leh...hehe

2007-12-06T04:18:00.001-08:00

Went to Causeway today to eat Seoul Garden. didn't know that the place upgrade so much le. but the food quite ok bar. eat until very full lor. then walk around, went causeway cause helped my father take his hp from the service place. wah, then the queue damn long lor.

ever wondered why people commit suicide. they do so due to reasons that hmmm they do badly at school, their girl/boy friend dump them, parents divorce and so on so on. ever wondered if any reason would be that they are very popular, they are very beautiful, they are very happy. doubt so right? haha, another random thing again.

didn't do any cca stuff today, cause my brothers hocked the comp. must start tmr le, dateline's on 8th. haish, so many things to do le. want to apologise to those who think that i am very slack, somtimes, just can't get the motivation to do things.....

anyways, hope i start hw soon....looks like only me who haven start

2007-12-05T05:51:00.000-08:00

Had ballet lesson today. was quite fun, haha, ballet lesson surely fun de lar. anyways, wore the new leotard today. actually thought it was quite low, but actually is quite ok. going to do np stuff tomorrow then do hw the day after bar. np suddenly got a lot of things to do.

just went to et's blog, realised that the things that she blogged about are very interesting. then my blog like quite boring, all very standard stuff. hmm, went to malaysia yesterday. we were eating at mac then suddenly got this one old man, a bit siao de i think. cause he suddenly shouted at the couple seating in front of us. " we hong kong peopl are don't know what, my friend andy lau, say that something don't know what. i know who andy lau is, then something here and there" then everyone was like ermm.....this man has some mental problem. at first i thought that the couple may have had made him angry. but my mother said that the person got problem. luckily he went away after scolding the couple.

Stardust is really nice. i liked the plot, so simple and so nice. so happily ever after.

haha, so random.

2007-12-03T04:35:00.000-08:00

Came back from Hong Kong for 6 days le, going to blog about the whole thing. One thing's for sure, the trip was superb!

Day 1
Nothing much on this day. Board the Cathay Pacific plane, was so thrilling lor!! haha, cause first time on the plane. Service was quite ok, then the ice cream was damn hard. lols, so random. ate the ice cream first cause scared the ice cream melt, but who knows the ice cream was like solid rock lor! but was nice also, cause is a very good brand one, the HD one if you get what i mean....checked in at Rambler Garden Hotel, was very small loh.......

Day 2
Wore full u and had buffet breakfast at the hotel. Very little range of food only....haha, greedy lar me. anyways, went to the hk police headquarters. explored the place for a while and went to the souveneir shop. bought souveneirs for the sec 3 squad and somemore for......hope they like it. after that went for a tour in the headquarters, saw some of the cells and all that. Went to the police training college after that. saw how the police to be trainings. there was also a mock hong kong in the place, to let the police to be have a feel of what they have to face in the future. was very cool and interesting. at night went to the symphony of lights. to say the truth, i enjoyed the breeze more then the show.

Day 3
breakfast again at the same place. went to the hk dog unit. saw a lot of things that is similar to ours. but they breed puppies and train them from young. from what i heard, many people are queuing to own a police dog as they are well trained so on. saw some of the tactics that the dogs can do, was surely very impressive. proceeded to the emergency unit. was quite ok, saw some of the stuff that the hk police used to protect themselves and all. then had a ride in the marine coast boat of something like that to someplace to see the jpc clubhouse. had a flour game too and gave our performance. it was well liked i think, seeing from their laughter and smiles..... haha. went back to hk and went to the citygate, factory outlet store. most shops were closed already, so didn't really shopped much, besides, the things are still expensive.

Day 4
Went to Macau today. another chop in my passport! haha, lols.the seats in the ferry were very comfortable compared to the airplane's one. slept through most of the journey. headed for the fire-station in macau. then coincidently, there was a fire somewhere in macau, and we managed to see the fire engines going off for the rescue. was quite professional. everybody knows what they are supposed to do and there were ppl shouting like fire fire something like that. so that everyone knows that there's an emergency. explored the exhibition for a while and explored macau. went to somewhere not very sure where for tug of war game. cause the macau flying eagles association have like tug of war games for every district to welcome new cadets or something like that. so we managed to view the competition. then of course, we have to play also, then we got third.....lols, our of three grps. but ok lar, since they seem to like have experience in this area. you can see the way they pull, it's so professional lor! then went for dinner, the worst dinner i had eaten, but maybe cause we were too full. had the ceremony at night and our performance for drills was damn good lor. the banging was so loud that the stage was vibrating even when no one is banging. good right, then many ppl were laughing at the quality of the stage.....lols, maybe not that bar. slept at the Flying eagles association campsite at night. not bad i think, there were like bunks like that. quite comfortable then the temperature there also very cool.

Day 5
woke up in the morning with so many bites on my hands. tsk tsk, they swell also. my hand was like so swollen. but cause i am like that. as in when insects bite me, my wound sort of, will swell. must thank those who showed great concern for me. then there was the paintball game which was quite boring. didn't managed to play cause only 7 ppl and the briefing was like 1 hour?! lols, the rest of us sat down and played, danced, sing. we played dog and bone also. was damn fun. Lunch was at a hotel? the jpc, flying eagles and us had lunch in a like private room in the hotel. it was the best part of the trip lor. everybody was like so high. we sang and sang. then our performance was also overwhelming. also don't know why, but very funny. haha, felt so happy then. our hardwork paid off. went back to hk after that. was most sad to part with the flying eagles, we exchanged souveneirs though.

Day 6
Went to the factory outlet again. bought a pink colour adiddas shoe. haha, pondered for so long lor, sorry to my friends who waited so long for me. then head for ocean park!! haha, only managed to ride 2 rides, but was still ok, cause it was most thrilling. then at night ladies market!! haha, only remembered that this day went to the ladies market. can't remember the other days that i went to the ladies market. but we went there 3 times, the 3rd time on this day. tried to finish all my money on this day. don't really want to bring back any hk dollars to singapore. cause like no use also.....then had a bday celebration for Naz sir cause his bday on 27. was very fun also.

Day 7
Had breakfast at the same place then went to the supermarket to spend my remaining money. haha. i managed to spend all, without a single cent left. pro right? siao. then headed for airport le. this time very lucky, cause i got the window seat!!! muahahaha. lols. then reached singapore...

so that's all for the 7 days. just a general outline. learned a lot of things during these 7 days. it is an experience that surely is unforgettable. as in the lessons and all. made a lot of friends and really enjoyed the 7 days.

2007-11-19T04:49:00.000-08:00

Suddenly felt like posting more, cause the post seemed so nice against the blog. hmmm, but don't blog too much, like very weird....

aiyo, don't know what to say again. Oh yar, playing the piano is damn difficult lor. the songs that i'm learning now are all about technique and i think that it's quite boring. as in like why can't i just play songs that are nice and not so complicated. though i admit that some classical songs are really nice, but it's too complicated and i don't have the patience to finish the song. expecially when the song is so difficult. feel a bit sad. but lols, got new song le, i think should be able to play well, cause it's quite a nice song. i very jia lat lor, so choosy about the songs that i play.....

2007-11-19T04:30:00.000-08:00

Changed new blogskin. Suddenly wanted something that is much more plain.....i.e. white. lols. anyways, it's not that nice, i decided to put out anything about me, my particulars and all, like doesn't serve any purpose.

A lot of things had been happening this week, thus no time to do homework. Everytime like do CCA thing, also don't know why so much thing to do. cause after posting liao then finally have a system in the squad, so then the workload keep coming in. Don't know if i can do my job well, i still think that my post is a bit bad or something like that. only ask other ppl to do work then i myself just touch up here and that, so against my style of doing things. haish, but already so long le, already accept liao, also cannot change it.

Haha, if you were wondering where are the quotes, i didn't put any cause et said that it was boring. Everytime come my blog see the quotes very sianz. haha, et, you should be happy lor, i take your words so seriously.

I think i'm a very fake person. I appear to be like that but actually i think other things inside my head and heart. and i also get jealous easily. i find that it is very bad thing lor, also so proud somemore. why like that? i feel myself so fake when doing some things. my heart is telling me that you shouldn't do that cause you don't really mean it, but my head tells me that it's better for me to do that. sometimes, i think real friends are really hard to find. i don't know lar, very confused.

When i hear other ppl telling me the bad points of others, i feel quite weird. though i try to tell others that you should endure or just ignore the person, take it as it is, but me myself doesn't seem to be like that. even if i really don't like this person, i don't show that i dislike you. instead, i act as though you are a friend to me. sometimes it's really so hard, especially at times when you really want to shout at the person"why don't you just get out of my sight!"

As we grow older, i feel myself getting someone not as good. before i was a sec student, i never talked about the bad points of other ppl, neither do i care if you like me or not. i only know how to spot ppl who are fake, but i leave it as it is. but now, i think so much about what ppl think about me and i gossip.

i don't know why, but hearing other ppl's bad points make me seem a nicer person, but actually, i am the bad guy. why should i take joy in hearing other ppl's bad points, why should i be happy that this other person is so bad? why? it's very bad right? but i just can't control myself. all this gossips make me seem like a nicer person, but in actual fact, i may be a terrible person in other ppl's eyes.

but that's life isn't it, everybody is different, everybody makes the world goes round. if everybody has the same character, wouldn't be living on earth be boring? i am just glad that i have some really good friends who understand me and makes me laugh. Really appreciate their presence so much.

Haha, on a much lighter note, i am going hk on 21-27 nov. haha, so don't call me and ask me to do anything. lols, when i look at other ppl's blogs, they always say like "will be going overseas on blah blah blah, so sms or send email to me and so on" haha, don't know why, but a bit weird. lols, now i'm saying the same thing also. lols, so don't find me for the 7 days ar..

2007-10-24T08:17:00.000-07:00

"People seldom become famous for what they say until after they are famous for what they've done." -Cullen Hightower

Long Time never blog already. Lots of bad things and good things happened....

Firstly, i failed all 3 of my science subjects for EOY. It was a serious blow to me as it never occured to me that i would fail all sciences. Haish, i know it's very lousy but what's over is over, at least my Lit. did quite well this time and managed to pull my scores up. In all my level ranking is 102, though it's a position i have never attained before, it's still ok. i can still work hard for next year. JIAYOUS!!

Hmm, actually not much to talk about, cause some things cannot be blogged here de. lols, it's like defeat the purpose of blogging lor, want to talk about something but cannot blog here or else everyone see.....anyways, lots of things to do, still got chem retest due to the fail in chem. Hope i can get the result that is needed to continue doing pure chem. though chem is very hard and i don't like chem, i don't want to take combined science. just don't like lah...

i think i dropping geog bah. cause it's like i can revise for piano almost everyday. i need to play the piano everyday for at least an hour then it's like save time also. cause i don't think i will have the discipline to read geog for an hour a day. furthermore, if i don't know anything about music, i can just ask my piano teacher. even if music cannot be counted as the humans subject, can use music for the other 2 R5. just do better at combined science lor. the Econs students also like that.

Had steamboat dinner just now at my cousin's house. very nice to eat. lols, but didn't eat that much cause got a lot of np stuff to do....need to polish boots and prepare uniform, tmr got a ceremony....

gtg now le bah. not much else to blog about le. oh, and yah, our class won the 1st runner up for the cheering comp and the best cheerleaders. three cheers for jia le and vivian. so good!! the hamper for the cheering comp rocks lor. can't wait for 21 nov.....

"He hasn't an enemy in the world - but all his friends hate him.": Eddie Cantor (1892 - 1964)

2007-10-08T03:07:00.000-07:00

“Friendship is the inexpressible comfort of feeling safe with a person, having neither to weigh thoughts nor measure words.”
—George Eliot [Mary Ann Evans] (1819-1880), novelist

Today's finally's the last paper. HOORAY!!! Yippee, lols. can't say i would be very happy but at least no need to study for exams anymore. that's a great relief! not sure how well or rather, how bad i would do, cause for EOY i slept like 10+ everyday of the exam which is quite early compared to others. but no choice lah, tired mah. can't because of exam then ignore everything else. besides it's next year that's more important.

hmmm, i got this great big thing that i think only 5 ppl in school knows i think. lols, as in my friends. haha, all of you will get to know when the time comes. just don't get too angry me that's all.....

not really got anything to say. just pleased that the exam period is over. though there's music on thursday, i think i will survive through lah. meanwhile enjoy the two days everyone, i know i will de..........

“Make the most of yourself, for that is all there is of you.”
—Ralph Waldo Emerson (1803-82), philosopher, poet, essayist

2007-09-20T07:01:00.000-07:00

“Whatever you can do or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it.”
—Johann Wolfgang von Goethe---

Haish, had a very bad day today. first up, was ridiculed by the person again during first lesson. haish, i know i haven been passing any amaths test since start of term 3 and that's like 7 tests, but no choice right? my maths is lousy and that's not what i like right? he asked if i planning to drop amaths, i told him no. and he said something like my standard so low, then really cannot de lor. then i say just try. he asked me to go home and think about it and do something about it.

i really hate it when he says this lor. and i can't believe what a terrible teacher he is. my opinion of a teacher is someone who helps in our subject, helps to make sure that we would PASS our subjects. but what he does is only give us a lot of worksheets and tests and just gives us the answers. then when he discuss, he don't like make sure everybody knows. you know then know, don't know then too bad. and it's like i don't think that this is the correct way of studying lah. it's just so irritating and just plain annoying. why does he wants to be a teacher. someone said that cause he not able to haveother jobs, not choice must be a teacher.

i mean, he's so used to being good and not failing tests that he does not understand people like me who always fail. he says that careless is stupid but i say that that's crap. careless does not mean that you are stupid. careless means that you know how to do the question, but some where when you were doing the question, you made a mistake and i don't call that stupid lah!! go think about the definition of careless and stupid lah, that monster.

continuing with my bad day. next lesson was chinese and was being sort of discriminated by the HCL teacher. she asked us to leave the classroom and don't allow to be in our class to do our chinese compo. that's like so unreasonable. waste our time as we need to find somewhere suitable and that ths classroom is still our class lor. she has the right, but is if right for her to do so? so angry with her lah. so what if we are express chinese, that doesn't mean you can treat us like........ right?

then chem was next, was quite ok but didn't really understand what teacher was talking about. then english was okok, quite boring cause we had lesson on punctuation, was quite sleepy then.

then come the dreaded emaths. had a test today and guess what? i am positively sure that i am going to fail this test terribly. what's with me. amaths and emaths. it's fate that i have to fail maths subjects lah. feel so angry and sad with myself cause i'm not able to do the questions when a lot of other people are able to do them. actually if most of the class also don't know how to so the paper, i won't feel that sad cause then everyone will be failing together. but it's very bad that it's only me who will fail. how?? feel so sad lor. very scared with my EOY results. my maths subjects will be so awful that one will feel the butterflies in the stomach vomitting.....

going to be emo tomorrow. remind me to be emo if i'm not. really very sad. as the saying goes " Maths really makes me mad" .........

“I like to listen. I have learned a great deal from listening carefully. Most people never listen.”
—Ernest Hemingway (1899-1961), novelist, Nobel Prize winner

2007-09-11T05:44:00.000-07:00

"A positive attitude may not solve all your problems, but it will annoy enough people to make it worth the effort. "
Herm Albright (1876 - 1944)

arghhh!!! tmr is the first wednesday of term 4, which means that i would have to be the PC for flag-raising. arghhhh!!!! how?!?! i am so bloody scared now cause i strongly feel that i sucks at shouting commands like skeolah sediah and senangdiri........i think i will shout very badly de lor. how to? was reminded by shuqin about this today. totally ruined my mood. as in the thing, not shuqin. lols. don't get me wrong, it's nice to be chosen, but it's bad when i don't have any practise for like years!!!! how am i going to shout tmr?!?! and there's trigo and further trigo test tmr too!!! OBS speech also. how am i going to cope?sianz....arghh, the day before the day also.....

actually, (trying to console myself) shouldn't be that bad lah, just shout loud then should be ok de. the for the test, just read through a bit today lor, then the speech just know the main points then crap along the way cause everybody talking about the same thing also. so i think should be endurable bah. then there's PE tmr so should be ok.

come to think of it, it's really sickening lor, our life. all we do is just worry about tests, exams and homework and for me, worrying about small stuff like the PC thing. a lot of people dying to be lor, then i still dread it so much. what's wrong with me? lols, maybe in our own small grp, it's ok bah, but in front of the whole school, wohhh, that's a bit......

kk, not going to crap already. still got piano hw and it's damn tough lor. haish, what's life exactly?

"Little by little, one goes on" Proverb

2007-09-05T07:51:00.000-07:00

"Nearly all men can stand adversity, but if you want to test a man's character, give him power. "
Abraham Lincoln (1809 - 1865)

sometimes i really wonder about people's behaviour at the cinema. of course, during a movie, there would be parts that are really hilarious that you can't stop laughing, but is it really considerate to laugh so loudly and so disgustingly? and especially when you laugh at parts which are seriously not funny at all. the whole movie consists like only YOUR voice, your disgusting and irritating voice. arghh, so inconsiderate.........

hmm, watched movies today. really very inspired to play the piano these days, what with the concert that i had seen last night and the movie SECRET that i had seen just now, really makes me want to memorise all the songs that i know and play that every minute of the day, sort of....... cause all of them seems to be so pro right? lols, and i personally feel that i would want to keep playing a particular song if i can memorise the song. cause it's like you just play, you no need to have a song book infront of you and it's like so impromptu? lols, i don't know, will try....

tmr going to ubin. yeh!! but now really in a confused state. can i wear slippers? cause it's like i will be boarding a ferry, hmm don't know leh. and really sorry to michelle cause my instructor says that the souveneir shop only opens on fridays, so cannot buy the shirt for you. sorry!!

that's all then, don't know what i'm going to do about my homework.....haish......that's what i hate about holidays...meanwhile, enjoy everyone!!!

"Personality can open doors, but only character can keep them open. "
Elmer G. Letterman

2007-08-29T06:15:00.000-07:00

Today's quote of the day:

“It is from numberless diverse acts of courage and belief that human history is shaped. Each time a man stands up for an ideal, or acts to improve the lot of others, or strikes out against injustice, he sends forth a tiny ripple of hope, and crossing each other from a million different centers of energy and daring, those ripples build a current that can sweep down the mightiest walls of oppression and resistance.”
—Robert Francis Kennedy (1925-68), US.. Attorney General

Suddenly like quotes a lot. feel that they have a lot of meaning in them. lols, influenced by OBS liao. lols. anyways, look through the quote and think of what it means. still on the topic of hope, but i think i will change the topic sooner then i think. lols, todays last 2 papers already, but not a very good end i think. physics was damn difficult, then today was sort of laughed by vlee about the amaths paper. a snake with legs, what's wrong, concept wrong mah, grrr....like he very good like that. really want to ask him why he want to be a teacher.

anyways, he very bad lor, keep suaning vito, keep asking him to give up and all that. what teacher is him, what right does he have to discourage students like that. wrong mind la him.....

don't say about him already, hmm, going to sleep soon, damn sleepy lah, but couldn't sleep in the MRT. don't know why. need to start on CSSP soon, then the rest of the hols can rest my mind about NP. hope that this friday's food delight goes well......

that's all then.........

“Life grants nothing to us mortals without hard work.”

2007-08-28T06:03:00.000-07:00

i think that i'm going to fail emaths terribly, how?!?!arghhhh

today's paper was too difficult, maybe it's cause i didn't read all the things that i have to, or that some stuff i missed out came out. maybe that's why, i'm unable to do a lot of questions. haish, feel so disappointed. thought i could have done better. feel very bad, cause if i fail, i would be the only one to fail. sianz.....haish, so angry. but too late already le bah, just have to do my best at EOY. besides, it's only sec 3,must do better next time i.e Sec 4 period. shouldn't let this thing affect my whole upper secondary life. hmmmm, lols, like trying to console myself. well, i AM. anyways, just keep praying bah. oh, and i need to stay back on fri after teacher's day cause vlee say that those who didn't do the graph properly have to stay back and draw the linear law graphs. sianz, really want to go out and watch movies lor. so bad lor him, ask us do as hw lah, don't let us say back in school. sianz......anyways, tmr last 2 paper liao......hooray, just hope chinese and physics not that difficult. oh, suddenly rmbed about progree report. sianz, later i fail chem, amaths and emaths, then very paisei and embarrasing lor. arghhh, why like that?!?! still need to let parents sign too, later they surely say i never read enough, everytime last min again. life is so damn un predictable......should be all then.....chiao....

“Hope is the thing with feathers that perches in the soul and sings the tunes without the words and never stops at all”
—Emily Dickinson (1830-1886), poet

2007-08-27T06:28:00.000-07:00

had chinese oral today. scored 31, which is quite ok, but not my best. cause teacher say that i everytime said then, and that i speak before thinking, so that's why my sentences are very not fluent. that's why it's thirty ONE and not thirty TWO. anyways, shen lao shi said that i spoke quite well, at least that's a plus point.

Had SS and bio today. yesterday read like siao, cause late into the night then start revising then actually didn't read much. but paper was quite ok. lucky didn't spend much tim reading, lols. anyways, going back to ubin on Mon with my watch. Yeh!!! so looking forward to it....

Hmmm, realised that i quite good in admin stuff. already realised this when i did the badges thing already. but now, helping michelle on the CSSP. partly only, then suddenly feel that our grp's idea like not bad. like really can work. not that othere ppl's one cannot, but that ours seem quite practical. then Wei Fen go and edit the template of the Total Defence Project, then damn nice loh. can't believe it. so damn GOOD!! lols.....

Hmm, Lit and emaths tmr. don't really want to read, cause so late liao, tmr wake up at 5 then revise a bit bah. should be ok de cause common test. work harder for EOY bah. anyways, Sec 3 only, so slack a bit or else next year will be very tensed.

Still got what ah? Not very sure also, kk, then end here, bah.......

we are like teabags, we don't know our strengths until we are put in hot water......

2007-08-25T08:40:00.001-07:00

Sry for not posting so long!!!! lols. anyways, there's this psycho again, at my flat. this pervertic psycho tried to steal my skirt again!! and my skirt was like hanging at the top of the corridor. In broad daylight, he tried to climb onto something, and using my mother's umbrella, which was also put at the corridor, he tried to hook the skirt down! Fortunately or not, the bamboo fell and my mother went to investigate the noise. She quickly chased the pervert but HE was too fast. THE END.

Seriously, what is wrong with this GUY. are BP skirts so nice? lols, really quite weird. anyways, started learning the song that Shen Wei played during his practicals for EOY cause damn nice. and guess what? it was so SHIOK! really! i played consecutively for 2 hrs, then due to time constraint, i had to stop. but really very nice lor!! the sound was so nice cause i pressed the pedal and also played quite loudly then very nice......hehe, maybe piano isn't that bad...

Common test period. think i will flunk amaths and chem. sianz, studied quite long for chem also. my salts and QA not that gd, so maybe will pull down the marks......

NCO course on Fri. was very interesting......felt really very bonded with the squad after the run. after screaming our lungs out and helping each other to carry the stretcher, i believed lots of valuable lessons were learned right? lols, at least i did......don't really want to know about ___________.

that's all then, should be bio and ss one mon. haven revised yet, going to sleep now.......

"We can stop waiting for others to give us what we need and take responsibility for ourselves. When we do, the gates to freedom will swing wide. Walk Through."

- Melody Beattie-

2007-08-10T06:51:00.000-07:00

Went to beach road today to buy long sleeve shirt. bought a green polo t at 6.50, quite ex i think, cause actually is 6 de loh. anyways, walked around while yeeting, michelle and joanne bought other things. seem to be buying very little things lor me, haha, cause i very thrifty...

Monday going OBS le, don't know if i looking forward to it or dreading it. dreading it cause about the thing that haven come yet, and looking forward cause i already attended already then will be able to enjoy more this time. anyways, just pray bah.

Watched The Simpsons. it was so disgusting and disgusting. but was funny and lame. Give it 3 stars. and Harry Potter was boring i guess, rate it 2 stars only. it doesn't have the special feeling and it just seems to be copy everything from the book. nothing interesting. was expected. boring...and another one is the Invisible Target, 男人本色, i think was very nice. 4 stars. hehe

hmm, really not in a mood to post anything cause this font like damn big. going to do report le.....chiao

2007-07-27T03:52:00.000-07:00

Going to be very busy for the next few weeks. there's tons of hw, tests, what with obs and common test coming up, i don't think i will have much time to relax and enjoy life. haha, lols, anyways, Inter-unit quiz next fri, wish us luck!! hope we beat _______ and be one of the top, then it will be like MIRACLE again!!! haha, really hope so, since our Sir put in so much effort in helping us to find the info. anyways, we all also memo like siao, so hope we really do well.

So, what next? hmm, let me think. don't really have much things to say bah. cause i got STM- Short Term Memory, lols, so i don't really remember what i had done. need to go to beach road to buy the long shirts soon or else obs reallly become otah......haha

National day coming soon, three cheers!! and there's school bazzar, though i still think it's a stupid idea to put bazzar, the parade and BPian Idol finals on the same day, it's nice to be able to go home early (I Hope) lols, at least no need to study on that day. Just sell and Buy stuff......and Yee Ting joining Bpian idol, i hope she wins something

Should be all then, posting results after National day. Sian, hope i don't get a post which is like always doing behind the scences stuff. i want to be credited and be recognised for my effort instead of others keep stealing my work......grrr.........PRAY!!!

lols, that's all then......

2007-07-25T06:17:00.000-07:00

Had not been bloggin these days, so busy with NP and homeworks. good news! we got 2nd for the Shooting Comp, which as the sir phrases, a MIRACLE. and my team also managed to enter the finals for the inter-unit quiz Comp, which is also another MIRACLE!! lols, miracles do happen.....

anyways, there's lots of homework these days and i'm always not in a mood to do them. i mean, who wants to do hw? except maybe my class, who all likes mugging except me. i find mugging to be extremely unhealthy to one's body and mind. we sit hunched at the table doing all sorts of homework, causing our back to be crooked. and the pressure of us telling our mind to finish the hw is really very stressing to the mind. so actually, there's really nothing really beneficial about homework except well, the fact that we would learn more, but that's another topic.......

hmmm.......still got some homework undone but that could wait. missed one ndp rehearsal due to shooting comp and going to miss another one due to inter-unit quiz. and i may miss some badges lectures due to my music lesson cause i can't possibly skip music just for this? OR NOT?? i don't know. i think it's quite unfair for np to be organised on another day when fri is the official day for our training. i mean, we have other things on other days right? and these other things could not be changed what!! grrrr, don't know what to do...

not going to do homework le. physics and lit, so sianz. don't really care when i need to hand in physics. just hand in next mon bah. since teacher didn't really say when to hand in but everybody still hand in anyways.....lols, my class is really one hardworking bunch of ppl.

National day coming soon, but there's no cheering comp and i'm not the CC. lols, i very naggy right? haha. no cheering comp is such a waste loh, waste the whole atmosphere, cause national day is an event that i liked most and surely i would be most enthu on that day, but too bad loh.....lols, say like i make such a big difference in the compeition.

so should be going to sleep le, tmr go school then see about the homework bah. though i'm not doing any hw, i just can't keep hw off my mind. cause it's like......hmm, unforgettable? lols. anyways, stay happy everyone, cause no matter what, it's just the way things are, you can't change anything, so just enjoy what you have.....there's nothing much you can do anyways.......

2007-07-19T07:13:00.000-07:00

Haish, so i didn't manage to be the CC. haish, didn't know that they select through merit. bloody hell, i don't think it was a very fair test loh. it was just, there were many loopholes here and there and through this, i don't really think maybe people are only deserved their marks. anyways, that's another thing. POP/ROD today. To me, i would consider it a success, seeing that well, everything went well, we were quite in control of situations except that the juniors seem to be having AP. Really going to miss the ncos, but hey, we are now the ncos!! isn't that exciting?!? lols!

sianz, had been busy with np all week and there's shooting tomorrow. tomorrow would be the last time that i would be able to shoot with a real gun. though, it would be tough, i hope that i would be able to achieve something for the school. regardless of what, i will definitely do my best!!

So, back to studying liao, so happy with my geog test. i got full marks!! when the previous exam which is the MY, i failed that. lols the paper was easy lah, but still feel very happy, hehe!!

there's 3 sciences tmr, got physics, bio and chem hw and ss hw. don't really feel like doing......see first bah....hehe

2007-07-11T05:47:00.000-07:00

I lost my Log Test, the test that i failed terribly, how??? What am i going to do about it?!?!

2007-07-10T05:22:00.000-07:00

So Irritating, i'm like so sick now, throat is pain like ......haish, so sianz......

2007-07-07T08:32:00.000-07:00

Went to NDP NE show today. tks to Michelle who invited me cause Yee Ting can't go. This year's NDP is so different!! Though there were no Goodie Bags given, i still enjoyed the show a lot!! Really very thankful to Michelle for inviting me.

The Show started with a few songs and all, then the actual parade. Actually i felt quite sorry for the CCA group People, cause they were like only march in, opened the umbrellas, and waved to the president then ran out of the sort of stage. I didn't think they learnt a lot of things except how to stay still for so long and some hormat drills and all. No offense to anyone, being chosen is surely a proud thing but i don't think being in the parade has any other advantages except that the fact that it's an honour to be chosen and the experience of being in a parade.....i just feel it's quite a waste of time.....no offense though.....

Then there was the show on the defence of Singapore and it was damn cool!!! WAH!!! it's so bloody damn cool lah! The airforce, Police coast and everyone was like so cool and professional and it was soooo nice!! if i'm able to join the Air Force, i hope i get the change to fly the plane and salute to the nation. oh, and our School's dragon boat team is supposed to be in the show. and they are supposed to be competing with 2 other JCs.. now, that's way too cool man, i hope they win.....

hmm, then there was performance i think....was okok, but the National Day Song sung by Kit Chan was damn nice too!! thought My Island Home was better, but anyways, she has a very nice voice and it makes the song totally nice though is was like the song wasn't as nice as My Island Home.....lols, the guy singer was also very good. but the thing that's funniest when the part when the prime ministers were supposed to come, the parts were sublimated or something like that, that means somebody will like mao chong them. then it was so funny lor, the fake ministers were like waving as though they were the real ministers, then very funny, hehe

hmm, that's about it, can't say too much, cause you all still want to watch on the actual day. tks to Michelle again! really appreciate the fact that she asked me, feel so happy, hehe! anyways, there few days very sianz lor, so many Np stuff then hw also. the weekdays are like so busy and tiring, whereas the weekends are like so slack, don't want to do anything.....haish, then suddenly realise that something we are supposed to do is not done yet. sianz, hope my sir will extend the dateline....arghh!!!

that's about it then....read in shuqin's blog that ms ong once said that all our life is about studying and doing hw and doing tests. what if we were to die the next day? won't it be pathetic to know that our whole life had been a total waste? i think so too, but there's nothing we can do right? we can just continue with this kind of life cause we have nothing else that we can't do. if we don't study and take exams, what can we do? we can't work cause we don't have the qualifications, we can't just do nothing cause our parents will not be there for us always, so what more can we do? haish, it's all too complex for our brains lah! though ms ong says that our brain can do amazing things.

oh, and though my blog is like all black and white only, i like it so just keep your feelings to yourself it you don't like my blog......

eh, i saw cheryl and vito today, not together, but just saw them. they didn't see me though, i am like invisible.....lols...

2007-07-03T07:58:00.000-07:00

I give up trying to be the perfect cadet. It's too infuriating and frustrating and difficult for me to handle. I just want to be me and sleep early.........

2007-05-24T06:01:00.000-07:00

this is my 100th post. lols, used to read other ppl's blogs and they keep saying oh, this i 100th post and so on, so well, need to copy a bit mah.....lols

haish, these days are quite boring and only one word can describe it. SIAN. grrrr, can't manage my emotions these days. i seem to get angry or sad easily and i doubt i will be feeling happy anymore during the holidays. what with 2 day course, 8 day camps and other days having ballet lessons, i don't think i would have the time to finish my hw and relax after that loh. besides need to start on some revision, due to my totally horrible marks this term. the worse level position i had ever get since sec 1. feel so disappointed with myself but still feel that i had done what i can already loh. other then the fail in physics and geog, i can say, i only did ok only. i surely can do a lot better lah.....but that's history already...

there's the bio thingy tmr. sian, actually want to watch movie de. but now cannot already. that time also like that. actually fri want to go watch movie but last min then say got NP. then now last min say got what bio experiment thingy. SIAN! arghhh, so suai sia me.

on a happier note. holidays are coming soon. NO AMATHS for 1 month. what's that i hear? heaven news sia! WHOPPPEEE, can't imagine how happy i'm not to be seeing him for 1 month. anyways, there's one more amaths lesson tmr, so let's hope that tmr will be over quickly.

arghh, can't say i'm totally angry or sad lah. thought most ppl wouldn't want to be in my shoes. seeing that my results are......haha, but there's really nth to be really sad about lah. just live life as it is loh. what else can i do? there's nth le loh.....just need to take life as it is...

ok, i know i'm talking crap. but that's the way how ppl live right? lols, anyways, that yeeting ah, keep saying that it's her fault that the lit. play was not that good. aiyo, i also mah, i forgot my lines and totally ruined the whole play. so it's not entirely yeeting's fault. anways, let's just forget this topic, what's over is over, we can't do nothing about it....hehe

that's about it then.....

2007-05-16T06:12:00.000-07:00

Blogger is finally back to normal.

THE FOLLOWING THINGS THAT U ARE GOING TO READ WOULD BE VERY EMO, SO IF U CAN'T STAND IT, HERE'S A WARNING FOR U, EXIT THIS WINDOW WHILE U STILL CAN!

lols, seem like the Series of Unfortunate Events. haish.....but even so, my heart and my head is all filled with sadness and more sadness. even if i don't show that i feel sad, everything is hidden deep in my heart. i FAILED TWO (2) subjects for Mid-year, and yeah, i'm bloody damn disappointed, though i improved for my language, i did badly, real badly for subjects that require memorising. haish.....

my mother says she's disappointed too. she says that i shouldn't stay up so late to revise and always wait for the last minute to revise. yups, i agree with her, but it takes a lot of self-discipline to be able to do that and well, i don't look like someone who can study right? i mean, i don't have the studying look, u don't expect someone like me to study all day long and mug every second of the day right? and besides i'm a busy person, a jack of all traits but master of none. arghh, i feel so depressed. why did i score so low? why did i not study earlier? why?

the sadness in my heart can't seem to go away. besides there's something more to my results too. it's the fact that i feel jealous of me friends, for this, i feel so sad too. i mean i feel sad that i'm a bad friend, a friend that is jealous of her friend! grrr, don't know how to say lah. but it's like how can a someone be jealous of her friend? that isn't right is it? NO! arghhh! sry ET, but don't worry, i had gotten over it. so don't blame urself for being chosen k? u ARE GOOD, so that's why u are chosen, don't go around telling everyone sorry.it's people like me who should be sry.

sadness is really an unpredictable thing. i find myself very weird. even if i failed my tests, i don't feel sad after like 2 hrs after the getting back of the paper. i just don't feel sad anymore. do i have some mental probs? or am i some physcho and weirdo? grrr, it's scary u know, to know that u aren't upset about ur lousy test marks.

netball comp today. was not bad, 3A is just too power lah! the GA of their team was like running so fast. grrr, and i didn't manage to prevent her from shooting. so depressing, haiya. but i intercepted quite a lot of balls for the game with 3C. was damn happy, but we only won by a little only. LUCK, that's all i can say.

haiya, so sad. this blog may not be that emo bah. haiya, how? my results are so lousy, even obtaining a fail for my subjects too. what to do? can i just die? chee, nah, i have my ballet, my npcc, my music, my piano and eating and sleeping to look forward to. i can't possibly die now. lols, did i say something wrong? but don't really, i'm not that stupid to die de. i mean, how can i possibly die, when i haven proved to VLee that i can do well in amaths and not drop amaths at the end of the year? how can i die when i haven reached the highest grade for ballet and piano yet? how can i die when i haven finished tasting all the food in the world? how can i die when everything is so interesing, well, except homework? er.......shouldn't i not mention the word die? later everybody will be like so.........

haha, just ignore what i've typed above. it's just a synopsis of how bad death would be.....shiver. lols, well, i can just pray hard and do my best for EOY lor. what's most important would be the o'levels lah. so meanwhile......just try my best loh

2007-05-13T08:20:00.000-07:00

Blogger is still mad.....

hiash, it's after the exams, but i am like even worse then i was during my exams. let start with today, got lit. rehearsal and i knelt until there are blue-blacks on my knees, so painful! then went out to eat again cause mother's day and came back to do np stuff then ballet.

got a very very shocking news during ballet. there will be 18 holiday coaching lessons during june and i will be missing 10 lessons!!! cause of np stuff. now i'm really in a dilemma, which should i choose? both are very important to me and i can't afford to miss any. but it's too late now to back out from np right?i still can catch up for ballet one, just that i won't be that good. but for np, if i don't go, i would lose out even more. even so, i still want to go for ballet.cause i really like it a lot, in fact, i love it!!!!

haish, really want to cry out loud and go to sleep, waking up and realise that everything was just a dream. i really hate this kind of life! why should i do all these? why will i do all these? i know that i'm not supposed to do all these, but i just don't feel secure if the thing is not manned by me! i need to know what's happening and that's why i'm doing so many things. i can't stop myself and i don't dare to stop and now there are like tons of things i have to do. but for goodness sake!!! i'm just one person, how can i do so many things and not get sick??? i woke up with a red eye together, will i wake up having fever tomorrow?have been sleeping at 1+ these days and it's like the weekend??? i have too many probs already, i can't wait for this period to be over and at least, claim some credit. it's not that i want to credit, if other ppl want, take it! i just want to be appreciated......

not going to blurt out all my probs here cause my desciption is not that good. hasn't had good luck for so long and there are still my exam marks to worry. i know i will not score for mid-year, and i failed my physics, though i don't feel sad. haish, can i still be in fancy drill??

i know, i'm greedy and still want to do my best. well, that's i don't know, born to be? wish me luck everyone.....i'm going to cry

2007-05-08T03:05:00.001-07:00

holy s**t, i got tons of careless mistakes for emaths paper 1! arghhh, damn angry now lah, careless for like 20+ marks loh. although i don't think i fail for overall, i was hoping to score well so as to pull my emaths marks seeing that the 2 papers are quite easy. but no!!!!! i didn't make use of the chance and will maybe end up getting a B3! arghhh! feeling sad, at the same time, angry too, haish, i hate exams.......

something's wrong with blogger. those buttons on top could not be clicked and only the font type could be changed. haish, left 2 more papers, music is tough lah! need to memo so many things, still got composing some more.....haish, how to pass? or get A1? grrrr, why isn't it practical, then at least i can score better...lols.

haish, still thinking about emaths. actually i don't really mind that i got so many careless mistakes cause in actual fact, i know that i know how to do the ques and that's a console to me, and not getting that good marks is not really a big deal to me......HOWEVER!!!!!! things are changing.......studying in T1 really makes me all stressed up. everybody is so engrossed in getting high marks, and if i don't study hard, i will get the last position in class which no matter how unconcerned i may be towards my marks, i don't want to have a 41/41 class position in my report book. i want to get at least a 19. haish, maybe i really went to the wrong class. it's already may and i don't really feel that close with the whole class. a portion yes, but some ppl are really how do i say it? anti-social? no, erm......like to be alone? hmmmm........just too concerned on getting high marks? i don't know lah, i just can't feel anything, u know what i mean? i'm not that sure also.

2ndly, i don't want to let Mr Ng down, cause i didn't get that high marks for the last emaths test and i think mr ng was disappointed? i don't know. but he is happy when i know how to do a ques on the whiteboard. i still rmb how pleased? impressed? neutral? i don't know, but there was somewhat a feeling that is not disappointed, and that made me really glad that i got the ques correct. so i really want to score well during the mid-year so that mr ng would feel glad that at least, my maths is not that bad. haish, but this 'plan' of my is going down the drain. i mean 20 marks of careless mistakes??????? how careless can the person be? omg, that's really going to make history:D

haish, let's hope there are method marks. my wish of getting 85 above of emaths also could not be fulfilled already and i can clearly see my $10 bill flying away from me now. haish, such a nice chance, when the paper is easy and i totally ruined everything. unlike the sciences, humans and languages which are all so difficult that securing a 70 marks would be difficult, emaths would be the most likely subject that i could get higher marks. argghhhh, am so sad now and angry, why???

nevertheless, cheering comp after mid-yr, 3T1 MUST WIN especially with vivien and jiale as cheerleaders and me being enthu (lols, just kidding) , we MUST MUST WIN!!!! grrr, i don't know how badly i want to win this thing. is it for the fame? the class bonding? the hamper? i don't know, but i WANT to win and i WILL try to make sure that we will win, will try my best lah....

so going back to do amaths stuff now. sian, amaths surely cannot get high marks de lah. aiya, why the class like that, cannot slack slack a bit meh? just do well in o'levels can already what, so gan jiong for what (lols, teaching everyone to be bad, don't learn k?lols)

anyways, 2 more days, then i can sleep late or sleep early, anything and relax and do stuff that i enjoy instead. endure everyone, it's only 1 more day!!!! :P

2007-05-05T07:01:00.000-07:00

my blogger like something wrong like that. but anyways, physcis paper has only one word to describe - hard. or rather damn hard, hard hard hard hard hard. even harder then CME. omg, what's wrong with the teacher. set such a hard paper for what, so what if it's harder, more difficult then o'levels, what's the use if we keep failing? we would get depressed and would not do well in the Os lah. sian......

anyways, there's 6 more tests for me before i can rest or rather take a break. revising is so difficult, i just can't have the discipline, just can't tell myself, force myself to study unless it's like the totally last min, last sec. haish, just do my best loh. studies are not everything......

after the exams like got tons of np stuff to do. got swearing-in, pop and inter-unit thing. haish, sec 3 liao, not like sec 2 and 1, slack slack de. gagagGAGAGAGagagagaga, sian........

hmmm, doing nhb now, then going to read geog. just read only bah. don't know how i'm going to memo. so many stuff loh......

2007-04-30T03:25:00.000-07:00

i strongly feel that typing and playing the piano are not 2 very different things. the only differences are that typing is just typing, you no need to exert extra force or use a smaller force when you are pressing the key. everything comes out the same. however, for the piano, you have to control the different tone of the music and ensuring that the sound that you produced are not noises.

nevertheless, the similarities are that typing produces letters, alphabets, words, sentences. whereas for the piano, it produces sounds and music, that are either suitable or noisy to the ears. for their difference, words however, can hurt people whereas music are just music, no matter what the mood is.

ok, don't think i was talking crap just now, there's a bit of logic behind all that words. so just think a bit and roughly know the meaning, but anyways.....though it's quite long already, but i still want to say again.....

BPNP got 100% MARKSMEN, making HISTORY!!!!

whooppee, pro right! it's so much better this way lah, then no on would be sad. but there's one more thing, i can' believe that i got full marks for marksmen. though i did hope for that, but it never occured to me that it would become reality. the specs that i bought weren't wasted then. but i'm now dreading the shooting competition. cause that time for the marksmen, i think i was the last one to finish shooting as just as i had finished the last bullet, the P-I-C asked us to unload. but for the competition, you are given a period of time to shoot the target. 15s i think, so am not really confident about it. so just wish me luck everyone, really want to do the school proud........but congrats to all np ppl, really very proud of all of you. 3 Cheers!!!

nevertheless, exams are really coming. the whole sec 3 life is one big SIAN. grrr, it's so boring lah, study and study, do homwork, sleep late. what's the use of life if we don't have the time to enjoy ourselves? grrrr, school life is boring

hehe, actually don't really have anything much to say. it's just the normal things lor. just hope i got time to finish revising and sleep early too. i just can't do anything during the weekends and exams are like everyday and i have to revise everything the day before. there's 2 paper a day too. haish, but it will be good if everything is over.

it's sometimes really quite unfair that some ppl get what they don't deserve and others who deserve it don't get it. it was a selfish act, i agree, but what to do? there' nothing we can do to stop what's RD is doing. we can only talk about it but what's the use? sometimes, i feel that she's pitiful, but suddenly, she goes and do something that i can't forgive her. why's that?i really try not to dislike anyone, i like ppl and i like interacting with them. i find ppl to be wonderfull living things, and i really admire those girls and women who are skinny, with nice body. but it's really hard to when their character really is totally opposite to that. i just hope she knows all that and tries to change. i really don't like to GP, but she's so much better then me, and i'm jealous, that's why i like to GP and to dig out all her bad points. but is that right? i heard that if i GP too much, i would be giving her my luck, and though i don't really want to give her anything more then she deserve, i can't help it! she's just too bad. i don't know. i just hope for her and that she would become a better person when she grows up. meanwhile, i will continue GPing about her and i don't care if she's the 1st in level or what. i already tried to give her chances......let's just all hope for the best for her......

lols, copying michelle's and yeeting's blogging style, typing the words in the smallest font. hoping that not everyone will bother reading it. anyways, study hard everyone then we can relax during the holidays.....

PS* very happy these days, cause there's no amaths. wonderful thing isn't it?

2007-04-25T06:16:00.000-07:00

suddenly realised everyone's not bloggin these days.lol, but i feel like blogging these days leh, don't know why. anyways, had morning training today with the girls and it was funny but tough too. i realised i had detoriate, as in my arm muscles and i can't pull the trigger after like 6 times using one finger, resorting to the fact that i have to use 2 fingers to pull the trigger which is not that good lah. but i feel that 2 fingers seem better, as in the aiming. it's easier too. as maybe there's not much negative side of it after all.

shooting's on friday. i hope i can get marksmen lah, and maybe into the shooting comp. bought specs for the shooting. $12, and i think i look quite cool in it though the colour is not nice at all. anyways, it think the shape's all right. just nice.....lol, i like wearing glasses, though it's fake.

ss on firday. planning on waking up 2 hrs earlier tomorrow to read. don't know lah. should i read then sleep, or sleep then read? but i feel so tired now. sian lah. luckily there's not maths this week. i can't do anymore maths after 2 period of non-stop practise of maths today. grrrr...

gtg watch news leh. really want to do well in inter-unit quiz also loh. i seem to be doing so much for my cca? i don't know, maybe that's what i'm supposed to do? lol, i don't think anyone's as ks as me.......

2007-04-24T07:00:00.000-07:00

still haven fully recovered from my sore throat. but it's getting better.

having chem test again tomorrow after the one i had today, or rather, the class had today. that's a sure fail test one cause i was like so careless and clueless. not sure if going to spend much time studying. still got tons of maths questions haven done yet and i'm still here blogging. lol.

airsoft shooting today. was ok i think. i didn't manage to get all the bullets into the target but i think that's ok bah, since it's so small. haish, hope i can do well for my marksmen, seeing how i have trained for the past few months. and to those who are worried too, just calm down and do ur best on that day. no matter the outcome, u knew u had done ur best already.

i hate maths and physics. physics lesson tomorrow though there's no test. don't really have the face to face the teacher cause he knows that i copy homework. he will surely be like want to ask me a lot of ques and embarrassing me infront of the whole class. though i can't deny the fact that he teaches very well, i still don't really like him now that he cares so much about copying homework. haish, and my physics is lousy too. how can i face him and endure an hour of physics???

anwyays, just have to hope for the best lor. ss coming and i have not even started memorising. sian, thinking of doing it tomorrow? let's hope the topics that i study well are the ones that come our. that's my final hope already........

i hate physics and maths.

oh, and i met my ex-ncos today. it was like a nice moment, but we didn't interact that much. just said hi and what are the recent events. i really do miss my ex-ncos, all of them. i find them really cool and pretty and nice. haish, everything's changing now.....

so gtg now to do maths liao. can't afford to wait any longer. and oh, i bought something today, hehe, shh, a surprise.....

i love my font for chatting....hehe

2007-04-23T05:06:00.000-07:00

it had been a tiring day for me, i did nothing today except sleeping and reading storybooks. i mean, WTW, it's the exam period and i can't get myself to study. anyways, have a serious case of flu and sore throat today. i literally finish my water before recess, which is like 1 litre in 2 hrs? and in exam conditions? this greatly shows how sick i am, needing so much water.

arhhhh, chem test tomorrow and maybe amaths tomorrow. oh, and there's np tomorrow too. haish, when i am sick too. i want to go home and rest but i can't afford to miss lessons. brrr, i hate maths and physics.

anyways, in great mood of speaking rubbish now. so what i had just typed may seem like a load of nonsense. today's paper was ok, can't say i am very confident in it, just hoped i can pass bah..

ss on friday, np tomorrow, wednesday and friday. how busy can i get. what with me getting sick and such a tight scedule, it would be a miracle if i survived this week

brother is going to renew his passport on wednesday cause he's going to beijing with his school mates during the holidays. lucky guy, can board a plane when he's like p5 only. kids, now adays...haish

i hate maths and physics........

i love np, lol. my boots can't shine. too bad, i say.

this is really a weird post.

2007-04-22T07:02:00.000-07:00

i feel as if i had been too rude to my ballet teacher

i have nothing to say about this

is this really me??????

i feel guilty again......

somebody pls help me out of this!!!!!

2007-04-22T01:34:00.000-07:00

brrr, mid years coming liao, as in tomorrow lah!!! arghhh, am afraid for most of my subjects especially physics and the maths.. and everything that needs memorising......just don't see the reason why we need to have any exams in school. why do the schools want to access and know where we stand? the most, when we grow up, be a cha kuay tiao auntie or uncle. as long as we are happy, that's the most important isn't it? so what's the use of studies when u don't want a career that is related to studies?

grrrr, but we still have to study. graaaaa. anyways, heard on the news, that there's a girl with 4 fingers and no legs, Lee Hee Ah, a 21-year-old korean girl is a concert pianist!!!! i mean i have 10 fingers, but i still can't played that well. but she has only 4 fingers, and could play pieces that are so difficult like chopin's fantasie impromptu. arhhh, damn amazing, this goes to show that even if we are born differently, we are still able to do things like everyone are able to. so hmm, i must jiayou and work towards my chosen career( which, unfortunately, require me to study) and that no matter what happens, we must remember that there are ppl out there who are more unfortunate then us, and has problems must worse then ours.

so, after all that chimchim stuff, going to end here le, jiayou everyone, for their MYEs!!!!

2007-04-20T06:11:00.000-07:00

it's been a week and i'm so guilty now. cause it is really a sin to copy homework. what to do? i really don't know physics lah. and mr siao was like so look down on me? don't know how to say like. he was like erm.......u copied homework, u are a gonecase. (ok, that's what i interpreted, that's not really the case lah)

is copying homework really very bad? i don't know, just feel very guilty now. arghhh, been thinking of this since i got back that piece of worksheet. but i really don't know how to do, so what i copy, i can refer to it when i am still lost. is that still wrong?

anyways, went to buy uniform this afternoon. and i think i spent like 1 hour plus to find that what? Yangzhe shop? grrr, i was like walking around teckwhye lane in circles and circles cause the bookshop auntie didn't provide any details of the shop. just said just walk down the road, go along the busstops, this and that. and ashwini said it was at around teck whye lrt. so i was like walking and walking in circles, and i just can't find that shop. grrrr.....so i went to one corner and got out my handbook, hehe, i found the address, blk 26.

so i thought it can't be that hard now, cause i think i passed by blk 25 just now. so i started walking again. believe it or not, i can't find blk 25 now! it was like there were blks 16-20, but no blks whose no. are more then 21. diao, so i walked and walked, and finally at around 2pm did i find the shop cause i was too stubborn to ask anyone around.

haha, that's about it, quite boring? hehe, no choice de. MYEs coming le, jiayous and good luck everyone. (including me, of course....hehe) and for marksmen too. let's make it a 100% passes this year k? JIAYOUS!!!!

it's really quite difficult to concentrate in class when flipping fringe queen is trying to seduce the car or biscuit (rmb the biscuit, yeeting and shuqin? hehe) directly under my nose. at least don't do that at school lah, it's disgusting lah!!!! (i totally agree with u, shuqin! yucks)

2007-04-13T06:04:00.000-07:00

i am seriously tired now, but, GREEN HOUSE WON THE CHAMPION FOR SPORTS DAY TODAY. amazing, isn't it?? we were last for like the past years and suddenly, we are the first! the new batch of green house sec 1s are really good. 3 cheers!!!!!

today's fitness comp was a SUCCESS tooo!!!! although my MCing skills weren't that good, it was ok, the overall. and seeing it's the 1st time, i must say it was very shun li. yeah!!!! let's hope we can do better for swearing-in.....

trying to look for nhb stuff cause exam coming and no time to do. arghhhh, and i lost my calculator!!! anybody saw it? it's damn expensive and i can't find it at home. could it be at school? noooooo!!!!!! i like my calculator a lot and i don't have money to buy one. grrrrr......can u tell me if anybody saw it?

going off now, doing nhb and sleep. have been sleeping damn late yesterday and the day before because of the MC stuff. *yawns* finding calculator tomorrow.

(3 Cheers, Green House. WOOooo, so proud of you!)

2007-04-09T07:55:00.000-07:00

The Phantom of the Opera is nice, go watch it if you can, should be until May 13th i think......

haish, feeling very sad today. cause vlee ranked everyone according to their marks for the last test, and guess what, i got only 3 marks and is ranked at the last. that's the reason why i'm feeling so sad. i can't believe that i actually got 3, cause even if i know i would fail for sure, i thought my graph would get like 7 marks? so i was really puzzled as to why i only got 3. nonetheless, i don't believe that the teacher would count wrongly or mark wrongly cause he's printing everything out and i don't think he would want to print the whole thing again. so i have sort of resigned to the fact that i would be the worst.

to tell you the truth, i'm not scared of him. ok, maybe a tiny bit, but regarding this test, i am not scared that he would punish me or what, i am sad and depressed as i feel that i had disappointed many ppl. my parents, myself, even my teacher. i don't know, i just feel that it's a duty to score well. i'm also terrified of the humilation that i would get, would everybody think badly of me after this thing? would they think i am just someone who's so lousy in amaths that i should drop it, or worse still, look down at me? i'm sure that the teacher would after this incident.

arghhhh, although i keep telling myself, someone has to be the last sometime, not everybody will always remain at the top, everyone would have their own bad points. and if it's not me who got the worst mark, it would be another person, and maybe that person would also be feeling what i'm feeling right now, so me being the worst may make someone else happier or something like that. but i still feel sad and scared. i can't imagine the humilation i would get tomorrow during amaths lesson. though shuqin, yeeting, ashwini and jiale keep telling me to cheer up, i can't! i mean, how can i? i am the worst of the 2 classes and it's like so lousy lah! what would u feel if you were the last? would u just pretend that nothing has happened?

let's just hope fri would come soon, or even thrus, cause there's no amaths on thurs. i don't want to drop amaths, but i have to maintain the 40 marks for mid-year to stay in amaths. i have already dropped HMT, i don't want to drop amaths. but, no matter what i do, it doesn't seem to work, amaths for me is just too difficult! arghhhhhh, but as alex and shuqin says, I CAN DO IT!

what i really want to say now is sorry to my parents. i don't know what they will think if they know about this and maybe sometime later, i would tell them, but i still feel that i have greatly disappointed them and made them worry. i am really very sorry, and i will try my best in future.

PS* to all those ppl who think this is too emo, don't bother reading it, cause it's my blog and i think blogging about what i think is most important, so pls don't say my blog is too emo or what......... (no offense to anyone whatsoever)

Dreading the arrival of tomorrow, what am i going to do?????

2007-04-06T19:16:00.000-07:00

some psycho stole my school skirt again! and this time, including my new school shirt. OMG, is there someone who's a pervert out there, who keeps stealing my school clothes? or is that person so poor that he/she has to result to stealing 3 of my school skirts and 1 school shirt, which is still like so new? argh!!!!! why am i so unlucky to have all my clothes stolen by someone who's like so desperate for BP's clothes. grrrrrr........

another thing. I WILL NEVER GO TO MALAYSIA AGAIN DURING A HOLIDAY(unless is like for a few days) grrrr, went to malaysia on the Good Friday hols and you know what, the malaysia custom was so jammed with ppl that we were all packed like sardines in a tin. it was so hot and everyone was squeezing each other, there were even 3 queues to a lane. i mean, how can you get ur passport chopped when there are like 3 queues to a lane? everyone was grumbling and mumbling. arghhh, can't stand it lah, now that i recall, it was a really hateful experience. why can't the malaysia custom ppl open more lanes and at least renovate the place or something, and practise some discipline, at least learn the s'pore custom, make sure that's there only a queue to a lane, and at least make the atmosphere cooler lah, how can they expect us to wait so long in that hot and stuffy atmosphere. grrrrrr.......so ppl out there, if you want to go to Malaysia, as in JB for a day, rmb not to go during a holiday, u will experience the worst few hours of your lives.

nevertheless, i watched 4 movies. wah, right? or siao? haha, the shows are, mr bean, storm the yard, the shooter and catch & release. all good movies. i like storm the yard best, and all of u should go watch it if u'r a fan of hip hop. damn nice.

well, should stop here now, going to watch the phantom of the opera later on. haven touched any hw, cc first loh, maybe sunday then do all at one go. enjoy ur holidays everyone, like me.......

2007-04-02T06:12:00.000-07:00

3T1 earned $100 for care and share today. 3 cheers. the goodie bag that me, yeeting and shuqin did was how should i say, not popular among lower sec, but was ok with the upper sec. personally i think there's tons of things inside the bag and it's very worthwhile that we only sell it for $1.50. 10 items for $1.50, which includes 2 packets of biscuit, 4 types of choc, 2 kinds of sweets and 2 marsmallow. where in the world can you find such cheap things. and he goodie bag was handmade by the 3 of us, and that shows a lot of effort put in right? so why is it that some ppl still think it's some cheapskate stuff and they can't even bring out that $1.50. haish, not that i want to boast or what, but the goodie bag was a lot of effort put in by the 3 of us and i just want them to be appreciated even if while the tape was not that strong to hold the bag together. nonetheless, we managed to selleverything. 3 cheers again!!!!

well, today was a bit tiring. i was sneezing and sneezing and rubbing my nose, using baoqin and shuqin's tissue. it was so irritating lah and so disgusting also. all the sneezing made me almost fall asleep during ss lesson. arghh, and i am still sneezing even when i am typing all this. better change topic now

oh, and there was 5 items today. i didn't get full marks cause of my standing broad jump and shuttle run. well, that was expected, i was super lucky last year to achiveve the maximum marks. nevertheless, to those who did not achieve what they want, don't be depressed, it's only a physical test and not excelling in it only means you did not have enough practise. so don't be depressed over such a small thing and just prepare for the 2.4km run. and after that, just enjoy the after NAPFA PE lessonss!!!!!!!

oh, so that's today, chinese and maths test tomorrow. hope i'm able to do. grrrr, can't seem to stop sneezing. i WANT TO SLEEP!!!!!!!!

2007-03-30T07:04:00.000-07:00

Hating is something bad, it's a strong bad emotion and hating someone wouldn't do good to that person. Disliking, to me, however, means another thing to me. It's the natural emotion of an ordinary person, a normal person and personally, i don't feel that anything's wrong with disliking someone when they are really can't be tolerated.

it's been a long time since i blogged and many things had happened. What's bothering the most now are my homework, tests and my cca. let's not go into too much detail of homeworks and tests cause that's what everyone is worried about. But cca????

i like my cca alot and i can declare confidently that i am very committed to my cca and that i would do my best regardless of what for my squad. however, now that the squad is taking over soon, many things, bad things are happening within our squads.

our squad is good, i can't deny that, but some in the squad are really pulling everyone down. the thing that i like most about my cca, is that everyone work together to reach a common goal and to pass on the 'traditions' of NPCC to the juniors. after working hard for 3 years, everyone gets a chance to take over and be the in charge of the juniors, planning events for all 3 levels. therefore this is the time that everyone would want to do their best and 'show off' what they possess and to be able to achieve that certain rank in the postings or something like that.

however, as what Phyllis had stated in her blog, everyone wants to be in charge but not willing to do any work. and to those who really work very hard and are not commented on their contributions, it's really unfair to them. i know, cause i had this kind of feeling before. i often wonder why is it that i polish my boots everytime before parade, doing my best and making sure that my uniform is perfect when sometimes it's so difficult, while others can just bear not to polish their boots and put more effort into their uniform. i mean, aren't you all proud to wear the uniform, aren't you proud to be a lance coporal, have the badges and most of all, an NPCC cadet of a GOLD unit?

it's not that i'm being strict or bossy or anything bad. i just want to voice out my feelings for once. the NPCC works in a way nobody can understand. sometimes, those who don't deserve it gets the reward, and those who deserves it are toally neglected. and most of the time, they would think, i have worked so hard, but what do i really get? nothing, so what's the use? might as well not come for cca, cause my hardwork is not even recognised. but i totally disagree. everything that i do for the squad is only the fact that i love my squad and wants it to be the best, the squad that all the CIs, HOs and TOs would remember forever. the squad that all juniors would look up to and treat us as their targets when they become ncos. it's not about the fame or what, it's the fact that the squad is united and really, no matter the occasion, did their best and only their best for the event and for the school.

when i do things for my cca even like the ordinary things like polishing my boots, i often think, why should i do it? most of the people in the squad never polish their boots and only a small amount really put in lots of effort in their uniform. why should i still polish when the standard is so low, why would i really care so much? i have no answer for that. i just can't go for my cca without really preparing my uniform well. why? why? why? I DON"T KNOW. how i wish i would not feel this way, how i wish i could prepare my uniform and be satisfied easily instead of worrying and worrying about whether is my uniform perfect or not. I CAN"T DO IT!

i know i'm really pathetic, saying all this here in my blog. however, to all my squadmates out that, what does this means to all of you? that i am some desperate person who is crazy about NPCC, that i am writing all this out to show how heroic i am, so that i'm just someone who is crazy. yah, maybe all of you would feel this way, but i can't help it. i cried when my father removed the kiwi on my boots that time as the boot could not shine. i shouted at him, and threatened him that he must make it shiny no matter what. it took 2 years for me to shine that boot and anything that happens to me make me so angry and sad. it's an emotion that i couldn't control and i feel so powerless against this invisible power of my cca.

but i LIKE IT. i like my cca till death. it's the bestest thing that have ever happened to me in my life. since the day i entered np, the day our first ncos past out, the day we got our lance coporal, i like it. NP is fun, you know. you learn drills, campcraft, interaction, you do basically everything, but now i look at how our squad is behaving, i feel so depressed, do all of you really want the sec 2s to take over, are you all so sure that you wouldn't want to be good ncos and leave a good mark behind instead of being notorious? everyone keeps telling us that we are going to be ncos, we need to buck up and show some standard or we would not enjoy our nco years, keep getting scolded by the CIs and HOs. is that what we want? can't everybody just do something, put in some effort, at least come for trainings. it's only once a week, what else do you ask for. occupying only one day in a week, that's not too unresonable is it? the CIs do their best in helping us know everything we should, our ncos, doing their best to help us, but how do we react? we walk slowly, we adjust, we are rude, we have attitude problem, always wanting to take charge and leave others to do the dirty work for you. we are a squad you know, and we should help each other in times of needs and not completly not care about their feelings. it's the special chemistry that really brings our squad together and only our squad, not the sec 2 squad, the sec 4 saud, but the sec 3 squad.

it's a sensitive topic, everyone wants to be the first the best, but is that possible? out of 40, only 2 can be the BUC. is it worth forgoing everything just for that title. is it worth it? isn't the experiences that we had gained during np that really truelly matters? does the status and title really matter that much?

i don't know, everyone would have different answer. as for me, i don't think that it's worth it but i would still do my best becase i love my squad, i love my cca, i love my ncos, i love my school and most importantly, i wouldn't want to see the once united sec 3 squad become something else just because everyone of us is going to take over............................

BUCK UP SEC 3 SQUAD! YOU CAN DO IT!!!!

2007-03-23T04:32:00.000-07:00

not really in the mood to blog lah, too tired after np. anyways, today was unlucky, woke up with someone telling me that today had to bring full u instead as we are not going to HTA. then i was like so rushed, and my badges were not that straight, in other words, crooked. argh!!!! so sry squad, i did my best!

then at one point, we were running to fall in right, then i was like trying to train for my 200m so i sprint, and when we were reaching one point where we all turned, suddenly, BANG! i was on the floor. i fell with no grace at all and at that moment of time, i really hoped i could just disappear. argh!!! tks to everyone who asked how i was, but don't worry, i am strong, a small fall, or rather a noisy fall? i think i still can take it

bio spa was okok today. made a mistake and was spotted by the teacher. haish, expected better performance for myself loh, but too bad lah. chemistry and bio not that good. how do i expect my physics to be any better? that's all already bah, there's lots of hw and newspaper collection tomorrow. brrrr, school life is boring.....

2007-03-20T03:11:00.000-07:00

just had my debate today, it was damn suai lah, so many grps, but our grp had to go first. anyways, ms ong said that we should have included other points that would reinforce our stand by haish, we are still amateurs lah. besides i was already rushing through to finish my speech, but to no avail. so i think the end result should be the oppo losing even if the propo didn't really did that much of preparation.

tomorrow is wed, amaths. sian lah, getting back the test paper. at a point of time, i tell myself that it's no use thinking too much about it cause i am going to fail no matter what, but then at another point of time, i would not want to accept the fact and dreading to get back the results. cause i know the teacher will surely keep saying how lousy the failers are and it's so demoralising. although seniors say that it's normal to fail his tests, i still don't like being a failer all the time and i can't really score well no matter how well i studied. maybe all that are excuse but i don't know, will everything be different if the teacher is not the same?

anyways, the above seem to be in broken english. don't really know how to express myself properly in good english. there's master parade on friday. haish, don't really have time to polish my boots, what with a test on don't know what chp for amaths tomorrow, and the lecture on fri which is 30 mins long. aiya, they can't seem to find anymore info. what to do!!!!

feeling very tired these days, keep thinking, what's the use of school? why is it that we have to go to school and in the end, make us all so worried and tired and stressed. arghhh!!! how i wish i could go back to when i was just a little toddler, just sleep, eat, watch tv.

however, i still must look at the bright side if i want to survive. though my progress report is like so ugly for this term, i would try to work hard loh, it's not that easy to have the self-control to revise on my own when i can do other things like sleep which don't need me to think at all.

getting so naggy and long-winded in my blogs, don't care lah, if you all think what i am writing is rubbish then so be it. i don't care what i do now, i just want to be satisfied with what i do...............

2007-03-19T04:09:00.000-07:00

it's been a long long time since i last blogged. anyway, school has reopened and everything is back to normal, not that things were different during the hols. haish, getting the graph test paper on wed, and i am really dreading it cause i know i will really get a big fat zero for that paper. i have been failing amaths test for don't know how long already, and i'm like really giving up any hope for amaths already. let's just hope, my overall score would not be that bad lah. i actually considered whether it would be better for me to seek professional help outside, but unless i find a really good teacher, it would only increase my homework load only. while, i would just have to do my best then.

many things had been happening, went to pk and hfs course during the hols, was so boring lah, and i only just passed for the pk course. i was quite disappointed lah, cause i don't know, i was expecting higher marks? anyways, although it was boring, i did learn something lah, not that much cause i was sleepy, but still managed to absord some. there was training on friday and i gave the sizing command for the squad, aiya, if i had known, i wouldn't have went around saying the sizing command. i totally messed up at the 3rd command lah, but well, i did what i can loh. after that went to have lunch with squadmates and gossip a lot. haha, didn't know we had a lot in common.........girls.....

went to chalet for the weekend, was fun but expensive. my cousins, brothers and i kept playing the photohunt and i bet we wasted like almost 40+ for that. very wasteful right? but no choice lah, i was addicted to it and can't bear not to play. i don't really exercise that much of a self-control. we also played the hitting game, something like that. it was so 'good' for the arm muscles. we kept beating the buttons during the game and it was so tiring. when i finished playing, my muscles were like hard lah. haha, good arm exercise, and at the same time nice game too.

well, i don't really want to blog about everything, there's too much lah. what's happened has happened, so it's not use reminicsing the past (i know it's the wrong spelling) . so the only thing for me now is look into the future and just concentrate on the present. no use thinking so much lah, it would only make me yearn for the past. so that's all i think, till the next time i blog, chiao everyone.

2007-03-11T03:37:00.001-07:00

blogging next time.....

2007-02-14T05:54:00.001-08:00

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY TO ALL AND A HAPPY

BIRTHDAY TO YI JIA AND WEIWEI!

2007-02-02T07:19:00.000-08:00

in reply to previous post or something like that, i am proud to say that my timing was a bit accurate during the flag-raising for this week. Yippeeeeee!!! i was like so happy that day, though there was like chem test on that day? lol, had already forgot already. anyway, there's a lot of tests this week and wah! so many amaths test too. i think the teacher is like so free loh, give so many test. grrrrr

sec 3 life is like so different from sec 1 and 2 life. it's like there are so many tests and homeworks, furthermore, the hw are like so difficult to do and requires a lot of brain juices to solve especially amaths as our teacher believes that the more practice you do, you would then score well. which i don't totally agree, as i am a bit slow and i need people to explain to me clearly what's happening before i am able to grasp the situation. or something like that.

it's a bit like p4 goint to p5 (though this change is much more drastic). the changes that are made in just one year is so damn great lah! remembering the days in which i used to think that i was sleeping too early, and now, i was like wondering what time i could sleep. since the start of sec3, i had been like staying up late to midnight-1pm to finish my hw and revise for the tests. i may seem to be burning the midnight oil, but i had already used most of my time for revising and doing of homework already. no use lah, cause i am really slow. must slowly get used to the fact that i could only sleep early one fridays, saturdays and maybe sundays.

had amaths test today, on log. was so difficult, i bet i would not score well, but well, i did my best and if i did not pass, really can't help it cause i don't understand the chapter that well. need more time to practise (mths? years?days?weeks?hours?minutes?seconds? lol) and hope i would improve in my amaths.

well, so that's really all about it. must be getting some sleep now, eyelids are so heav that they may close any second. so chao everyone.

Making the worst decisions of all that was available.

2007-01-24T07:04:00.000-08:00

today's a rainy day so there was no flag-raising, so disappointing, i was hoping that i would pull the flag better today then i would not have to feel guilty for another week. but the weather was not on my side and it rained. after geog and bio, it's the amaths test. i think i know how to do most of it, but who knows? they may not be correct, but what's done is done, let's hope i didn't do that badly.

so after the test, the teacher went and taught us another topic of maths, hinting to us that there will be an amtahs test on surds tomorrow. a topic that i am totally lost and clueless about. and now i am like so desperate for help and there's a chem test tomorrow that i had only briefly read through only. aiya, why the teachers like giving tests so much. if there were no amaths test tomorrow, i would have gone to sleep by now. but no!! cause i don't want to fail my maths but i also don't know what to do about it!!!!! argh!!!!!

so i am still going on about the test, thinking how the test would be given. i mean surds leh, it's like how to give problem sums on surds, it would be damn difficult lah if it's like that. but it would be easy if it's given like the ques 2 in the tb. haish, don't know what the teacher would give. hope that the chem test isn't that difficult, better still, don't give, then we only need to write compo tomorrow. FAT CHANCE LOR.

2007-01-17T06:59:00.000-08:00

today was an unlucky day. i was still sick with sore throat and i even had flu in which the mucus was like keep on coming out of my nose, making me cleaning my nose every other minute. that's the first. second, i made the worst mistake i could ever make!! i raised the flag with such inaccuracy that mr hisham and mrs wong the T-I-C of the student council came and sort of told me off for that. i am so sorry for letting the whole school wait for the national flag, i pledge to do better the next if i could do it again. seriously, i don't really have the confidence of raising the flag again after the first failure, but well, since i was in the wrong, i need to learn the right way and do my best. everyone, pls, forget this thing after today, i don't want to hold the guilt all my life, like that time i puked. *shivered*

next, there was a change of timetable and guessed what? we had Amaths and SS when we were not supposed to have them. SS was ok, but Amaths was humilating. shouldn't talk more about it, those in his class will know. PE was ok, but i lost 2 of my valuable group members who was not available, but PE was fun lah. *tsk tsk*

that was all already i think, then we stayed back to rehearse for the story-telling, hope that we do well for tomorrow and not embarrass ourselves in front of the class. it's basically a good story.
well, gtg now, going to sleep now

2007-01-15T06:01:00.000-08:00

i am currently having a very bad sore throat, my throat is like so painful, hope it doesn't get any worst, or i might have a fever.

it's been a few weeks since the reopening of the school and because of the hectic scedule and the tons or homework, i hadden been updating frequently and i still have a script to memorise, so this would be a quite a short post.

things had been moving too fast, i had been selected to be the first sec 3 to do the flag-raising, i guess that should be an real honour and i should feel really glad, but all i feel is fear,the fear of not pulling well enough, or not tying the string properly, pls, let term one be all over as soon as possible!!! haha, but i still must say, i feel really honoured.

actually there are alot of things i wanted to say, but suddenly, my mind went blank. maybe it's time to return to my work, updating next time when i have the time. till then, enjoy the new year everyone.....

2007-01-03T04:37:00.000-08:00

today is the first day of school, knowing new teachers and friends. i feel that it's quite difficult for the classes that have just been 'formed' suring sec 3 to have a very good class spirit, cause we don't have the orientation week, and have games to know our classmates better. however, we are what you say more mature, so maybe becoming friends, making friends, is part of the cultivation that the school wants for us, make us prepared for the outside world to be able to fit in.

what i can say that , is, i am not very satisfied with the dismissal time. it like ends at 3pm and when i reached home, it was already 3.40pm!!! it's like so bloody late in the afternoon. grrrr, why can't it end at like 1+, then at least i could go out and not be home late at night when during relaxing days or something like that.

i hate my classroom, it's small and T2's classroom is like so BIG!!! and don't know why the arrangement is like so erm weird, hai wo yao squeeze until like that. seeing the whiteboard is also difficult, and sitting at the back makes me want to sleep and not concentrate in class. hope that arrangements can be made to the sitting arrangement or what, pls, i don't want to sit at the back again.....(but i very much doubt that, i am never very much in luck at all. well, i will just have to accept the fact)

it's all a bit weird with Hui Qi and WeiWei, Jane, Yi Jia, Lyria at other classes, i am sure going to miss them a lot. though i still have Shu Qin, Ashwini, Yee Ting. (can't be too selfish can i?)miraculously (or not), we had already created a bond among us, and the class spirit, it's really hard to really seperate from each other. though we are at other classes, we greet each other when we meet as if we had known each other all our lives. how i miss the old days and how unenthuly i had participated in the activities. haish, how i wish i can turn back the time minus the exams.

well, time had not waited for us and had already gone on ahead leaving us to catch up with it. it's already 2007, a brand new year, a year that brings upon many happenings that you, me, everyone would never imagine. here's to the new year and a happy new year ahead to everyone who matters.......though i am greatly NOT satisfied with the new year, one has and must learn how to accept the fact no matter how bad they are.

Making up for past misdeeds, can i watch that movie?

2006-12-20T05:36:00.000-08:00

i am so going to go mad. don't know how to upload these two photos together side by side, but anyways, watched Gridiron Gang and Eragon today. very nice movies. Eragon is about this country, which has a very long name was once ruled by dragons with their dragon-riders. however, because of one dragon-rider who became too greedy, decided to 'defeat' the other dragons and be the only dragon-rider left, and be the best and thus be the king. but a miracle happened and Eragon, the new dragon-rider was born ( as in the dragon-rider was born, not Eragon, get it? not too sure, too chim lah.... difficult to say.). and the journey begins when he joined hands with the Vardens and tried to destroy the king and the evil socerer Durza.

For Gridiron Gang, it's based on a true story, very complicated content, too lazy to say. haha, but quite nice also. haish, these days are going too quickly, i just don't seem to have any time for anything, it seems that all of my time is spent helping out at my auntie's store. although it is only for the evenings and nights, i usually prefer doing homeworks during nightime. haish, and the afternoon and mornings passed so fast. time is really hard to catch hold of...........

nothing much during the holidays, my friends and i haven been going out. how i miss the old days minus the exams and homeworks. but it's nearing the end of the holiday and i doubt we would have a chance to get together for a movie or so. haish, i am so pathetic.

still don't know what mother tongue i am taking next year as in higher or normal. so the chinese books are still a problem. well, i am prepared for school already though there are some unfinished chemistry and maths questions due to uncertainity. but will think about them more seriously some time.

till then, enjoy your holidays everyone, school is coming and the hardwork is coming, enjoy the festive season. CHRISTMAS IS COMING!!!!!!! HO HO HO, MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!

Till then, the mermories are in my head, flooding the entire space......

2006-12-13T02:09:00.000-08:00

i have been a very bad cadet. yesterday was my ex-nco Dewi ma'am's birthday. sry for not wishing her a happy birthday yesterday. pity there aren't any squad outings during the december holidays, or i could give her a present. can't give her next year too.......haish

some passerby been saying that my auntie's stall seems unhygenic and the food does not taste that nice. well, i can't agree with him/her. cause, well, it's not unhygenic cause if it is, people would have had food poisoning but there were none of this. and the food is based on the person's opinion and i am sorry to say, you can't just claim that the food is not that good. cause some customers did say that the food was extremely delicious.

well, this would be a short post, just went to the CD course. it was so boring and some of the stuff we already knew. i was like nearly dozing off in the middle of it but i must admit that i learnt a lot during that 8hrs period. hope i do pass the test to get the badge.

going out now, let's hope i am able to finish my homework and KNOW how to do them before the holidays are over. my wish of finishing them before Dec is impossible seeing that it's now Dec and i had not finished my hw.............

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2006-12-11T05:37:00.000-08:00

Don't anybody check blogs during the holidays, and don't anybody update during the holidays??? haish, everywhere i go, there's no new entry for me to comment on and for me to read about. nvm, i cut my hair today, and my fringe, haha, felt that the person cut my hair too straightly? but still ok bah i think.

been busy these few days, everyday except Sunday, i've been going to my auntie's new opened shop at 253 to help out at night. so all those, who go 253 to have their food, go there and try something, it's worth it i think. it's on the 2nd storey's hawker centre. just look around, it's the shop that sell all kinds of food, beside the prawn noodle stall.

haven yet finished my hw, realised how lousy my maths had become, the maths questions are like unsolvable, can't stand it lah, and the chemistry is like un-understanderble. argh!!! what's wrong with teachers, giving hw during the holidays!!!!

have bought most of my books except for geog textbook, farenheit and the what distinction in vocab something like that. i am scared about mext year's maths, i just don't really understand algebra at all, they are all just letters and numbers, no use solving them what. haish, must get myself to at least jie shou maths.

ok, so that's all about. watched The Host, very funny lah and not that frightening, similiar to what Shu Qin had said. only one part when the monster suddenly appeared was it scary. the ending was not that good seeing that the family members went through a lot to rescue the girl but the girl was still dead in the end. but it's ok lah, not that frightening like One Missed Call.

Yippe, 2 more days to Civil Defence Course. can't wait for Np training, but well, better make sure my boots and uniform is up to standard first.......

Anguished-Is there such a word? Don't think i got the spelling right.

2006-11-28T04:03:00.000-08:00

Finally managed to upload this photo, tks Zheng Wei for teaching me how to upload a photo, i think i really very cham lah, everything also don't know. haish, anyway this movie is called One Missed Call and it's a Japanese movie. i think it's a bit like Deathnote but that instead of the book, it's a curse that makes the characters die. it's my first horror movie and well, i think it's brillant, though some parts are very scary. when this movie comes out, do go and watch, i cried a few times during the show. my mum say i siao, so scary also can cry. but it's only the parts when the curse is acting upon the person and the person is dying, then it gets scary, the way the person dies, but actually, it's quite a touching movie and the korea mute guy in the movie is so handsome lah, i think. go watch it when it comes. cause if i am able to take it, i think most of you can lah......

haha, really cannot stand liao, like it till siao. went out with my cousins today, and watched this show. and went to eat and shop and bit. bit boring lah, nothing to do le and no good movies. i want to watch STEP UP!!! but i think it's ending soon, haish, anybody want to watch??

can't believe i really like a horror movie. i WILL NOT say the content in here or else it wouldn't be nice when you all watch it. but really, a bit like Deathnote lah. aiya, must stop myself or else i will flood this entry with the movie ONE MISSED CALL......

hmm, i don't think i will be in higher mt next year lah, so late already still got no news and i don't think my chinese standard is that good loh to maintain until sec 4..........haish, let's all hope for the best.......for xinfang, tingyan and lyria too.....good luck for the appeal. i think only 4 of us from the class appealed?? don't know lah, but good luck to those who deserved it!!!!!

going to help out in my auntie's shop tomorrow, hope i have the heart to do it. haven finished my hw, i don't think i will want to do lah, so difficult loh, then waste so much of my ink, cannot do chem lah, my chem is damn lousy lah, grrrrr..... next year sec 3 already, going to take over next year june, but still got a long time. hmm, sergeant test should come soon, we already sec 3 liao, then holiday no training somemore, later we all the worst sec 2s ever, then keep scolding us, but i think our squad would survive lah, we had gone through much worse......

going to end now, blogged too long liao, and ah qi, , my mother don't have give a lot lah,xiao xiao yi si what, gugu also give that amount. but nvm one, we all relatives, no need to be so ji jiao one. and the stationary set is something that i feel would be a very nice present. no special reason bah, i feel happy that you like it lah......once again, happy birthday............. belated........

Mesmerising movie, can't get it out of my head. argh!!! too good!!!

Overreacting actions.....

2006-11-28T03:16:00.000-08:00

IN THE PAST 24 HOURS,

HAVE YOUcry: yes, when i was watchin the movie.

worn jeans: yah, when i went out today....

done laundry: does washing one piece of clothing counts? don't think so, no lah.....

went hungry: hmm, around lunch time when we were watching the movie, and ate lunch only after the movie so i think i went hungry during that period?? don't know lah....

said i love you: don't think so, not directly lah.....

DO YOU BELIEVE IN

yourself: course!!! if i don't believe in myself, who will????

your friend: yah, if i can't believe them, they wouldn't be able to be my friend....

tooth fairy: no, not at all, no money even was placed under my pillow instead of the teeth.

destiny/fate: yah, everything, i believed that it's fate that this thing will happen and blah blah blah....

ghost: no, never seen one before, don't want to see, don't believe......

UFO: no, same thing, never seen one before.....

FRIENDS AND LIFE

do you ever wished you had another name:hmm, no, i like my name just fine, besides, it's sexually stunning.......haha, lol( see 201 crashcourse blog)

do u like anione: of course, ifi don't like my family and friends, does that mean that i hate them????

which of your friends act most like you: not sure, i don't even know what kind of a person am i, quiet or rowdy????

when you cried the most whu was there: seldom lean on others when i cry, don't like telling others when i cry, don't like others comforting me, feel more comfortable alone, that's what i think lah......

wat's the best feeling in the world: not sure, i like lots of feelings bah, haven really felt all the feelings.......haha, lol....

wat's the worst feeling in the world: same thing lah, hard to say, there's lots of feelings....

wat time is it now: 7.44PM

WHICH IS BETTER

chocolate or vanilla: hehe, chocolate

coke or pepsi: pepsi, i think it's less gassy

love or lust: love

Layer Four your pick

Mac or KFC: Mac, i love burgers!!!!!

single or group dates: group dates??? cause i like to be in a crowd, but sometimes, single dates would give us more privacy....

Adidas or Nike: not sure, not really into all this branded brands........lol

Lipton tea or Nestea: lipton tea i think is not that bitter?

teacappucino or coffee: never tried before, but i think coffee wouldn't be nice, it's too bitter for me....

Layer Five Do You

smoke: duh? no.

curse: not most of the time, but sometimes.....

everydaytake a shower: of course!!!! though i don't like bathing, i like being clean!!!

have a crush: not now bah......

think you've been in love: hmmm, no.....

like school: no, i only like my cca and friends, sry to say, school is tough?? with hw and exams added.....

want to get married:yeh, human species must not be extinct!!!! haha, lol.

think u're a health freak: don't think so, i eat all types of stuff.....

Layer Six In The Past Month

drink alcohol: no!!!

to the mall: yeah, just now....

been on stage: yah, for the ballet thingy...

eaten sushi: no, actually, i can't really stand the rice....

been dumped: N.O, no, fullstop.

gone skating: no, don't think i even know how to.....

dyed ur hair: NO!!!! i love the natural black...

Layer Seven Have You Ever

played a stripping game: NO!!! i wouldn't dare show parts of my body to anyone.

changed who you were to fit in: yah, i think so, but it's too tiring so i just take it as it is...

Layer Eight Getting Old Age

you're hoping to get married: yup, chuan zhong jie dai....

i love: just as so that it's not some evil person or thing, i will try to accept them and love them lah....this world revolves around love

i feel: life is going to get better once i escape school, as in graduate....

i hide: no use hiding, i will be found sooner or later, so no use hiding lah....

i miss: yah, my past, haish, when will i be free??

i need: happiness.....

SEVEN people you would like them do :

everybody can do...... for fun lah, but if you don't understand the questions, just anyhow reply lah.....

2006-11-23T06:01:00.000-08:00

I saw Mrs Liam today. with her daughter. alighting the bus. not much a big deal, already saw Mr Lim that day at that place already, seems to begin seeing teachers during the school holidays, hope that they don't see me, a bit ma lu one........hehe.

new movies, deathnote(not that new), flushed away(outdated already??), Happy Feet (ok, that's new), Casino Royale 007 (definitely newbie), finally watched these movies, going to talk about them can't stand it anymore!!!!!

the movie i liked among the 4 is Flushed Away. it's hilarious and the content is just nice, you don't feel that it's too draggy nor is it too long. haha, the most funny part was when the balloon inflated and produce a sound like fart right, this cartoon guy in the movie did a fart exactly when the balloon is being inflated. when he's being asked about it (it's very smelly), he said that he couldn't pass up such a nice opportunity. haha, it certainly seemed funny when in the movie....

the second movie is deathnote, i feel that the two main characters are very clever, and the way they zhen dui each other is just so clever!!! i can't believe how they get their conclusions and such, really unbeliveable. bad thing is that it ended too abruptly

third movie's Casino Royale. it's nice at the action part but it got too draggy after that and it was ok i think, still acceptable, but i don't really get the story at some parts. but still can bah.

last but not least is Happy Feet, ok so there are a lot of dancing and singing, but the content is lacking in there. quite a sad story though it ended quite funnily in the end. not really what i would choose to watch if i know the storyline, but it still brightens me up with all the singing and dancing so it's quite ok lah i think.

haha, i can be a movie critic next time, though maybe not that good....lol. just handed up the chinese homework, going to play some games to lighten up my mood. hope that some more good movies would come up during this period. i think that the night in/of(not sure which is it) the museum is coming, surely worth watching i think. oh and harry potter, when's spiderman coming? and deathnote 2........lol!!!!! haha, love watching movies lah.....

omg!!!!! i realised something. i lost the paper, the paper which states which school and what time i am supposed to report for the music o'level lesson. i don't know what to do, i know the time and the palce, but do we need to bring the paper when we enter the school???? i seriously hope not, i think i really truelly lost it. argh!!!!!!

abiding by the damn good rules. NOT.

2006-11-18T03:19:00.000-08:00

this is the new blogskin......haha, feel that it's too dull, but i can't really find colours that fit together nicely, so settled for those dull colours. lol, if anyone think that the font is too small, tell me, tag me, anything then i will change the font when i blog or i will just keep the font this way.

something happened in Genting that i want to relate. you all know the game Motion Master, it's like a theatre, with everyone in their seperate seats. so on this particular time when i was playing, i was seated near a very small boy, small and cute, and the father was not playing, onlt him and his other brother whom i think is his twin playing only.

ok, so, alright, the game started, and suddenly i got this weird feeling, i felt the boy staring at me and sure thing, when i turned around, the boy was looking at me through those game sunglasses(we are supposed to wear them for the game) ok, so when i saw him keep staring at me, i totally freaked out. he was like looking at me throughout the whole game and i worried what in the world did i do wrong for someone to look at me like that. it was so eeeeeerie!!!!

ok, so i lookied back at him, or stared i don't know, hoping that he would looked away. but NOOOO!!!!! he kept looking at me. ok, i really freaked out, so i pretended to ignore him, keep lying to myself that he is not looking at me, but in actual fact, he was staring at me the whole time!!!!!

ok, towards the end of the game, sort of, i looked to see his reaction, and when everyone undid their seatbelts, he immediately took his off and ignored me completely and went to look for his father. i was totally shocked, i was like feeling that he may confront me after the game or something like that, but he completely ignored me.

so, ok, i got ready to leave when the boy's father came to him. the father asked him if he was scared and guess what the boy said???? " nah, i was looking at someone else"

argh!!!!! so, the boy was looking at me to prevent him from being scared. ok, so i should be comforted that he didn't find me frightening or what, but he totally prevented me from concentrating on the game.

haha, but come to think of it, it was actually quite funny, with me thinking all sorts of rubbish things when the boy was only trying to keep himself from being scared. at the beginning, i afraid that the boy would feel frightened as the game was a bit frightening, but well, all well's that ends well.

2006-11-16T05:32:00.000-08:00

i have just returned from Genting and i did lots of those questions things......haha, haven been in touch with the computer these days, so must use more to bu hui those lost time.....lol

i am in triple, feel really lucky to be able to be in triple. and i am in geog and music, but i don't know if i can get into higher chinese. see first lah, just returned from Genting, not in a mood to think too much, suffering from the after-journey?haha, missed the air and the theme parks.

haish, not in a mood to do much blogging so i went and did those tests. but if i really am to talk about the Genting trip, erm......i think this post would take up the space of the entire blog, but i enjoyed the trip and look forward to next year's one.

har, need to go on with my homework, i think there's only me who haven did about half of my homework, should work on it soon

so, better catch up on some sleep, feel like playing some game.....chiao everyone

Not Believing the after effects, nearly vomitted 3 times

2006-11-16T05:15:00.000-08:00

1.Single, taken or crushing?
single!

2.Are happy with yr life?
yes......i enjoy everything that is happening in my life and i am content with it, but of course, everyone is greedy, i hope that my life would get better but seriously, the life that i have now is enough

3.When you meet the right person, do you fall in love with him/her fast?
depends.....but first thing first, how i know if the person is the right person???

4.Have you ever had your heart broken?
hmmm. i don't think so, i don't really like anyone that i seee......lol

5.Do you believe there are some circumstances where cheating love is acceptable?
yah, should be lah, sometimes the person may be in a very difficult situation, it's based on the explanation that the person have i think

6.Do you take someone back when he/she cheats you?
no.......i may forgive the person, but i don't think i would like to see the person again

7.Have you talked about marriage with another before?
another as in what another? talk about it with girlfriends but never to a guy, feel that it's quite useless telling these things to a guy......

8.Do you want children?
yah......it would be good.

9.How many?
3? so another one can accompany me sometimes.....but 2 should be ok lah

10.Would consider adoption?
not sure.....see the situation bah

11.If someone likes you right now, what do you think is the best way to let you know his/her feelings?
not sure....

12.Do you enjoy getting into a relationship?
don't know....never been in one before...

13.Be honest, what is the furthest you and ex did?
first thing.....i didn't have any ex so what is the furthest? talking????

14.Do you believe in love at first sight?
depends one the situation, but i believe, yes...

15.Are you romantic?
don't know am i?

16.Do you believe you can change someone?
yes.....i believe in myself!!!! haha lol

17.If you get married somewhere, where would it be?
someplace we like a lot and that is cool and beautiful

18.Do you easily give in when you are fighting?
no........i have every right to win

19.Do you have feelings for someone right now?
don't know, shouldn't be lah

20.Have you ever broken a heart?
don't think so........

21.If one day your best friend falls in love with the guy/girl you love, what will you do?
erm......i will see who the guy like better? and if it's my best friend, i will cheng quan them bah, cause then they will be happy with each other???

22.Are you missing someone right now?
not sure.....no?

23. Who is ur crush/stead?
haish,,,,,, no one.....haha....lol

2006-11-16T04:48:00.001-08:00

Name 20 people you can think of right now.Don't read the following question(s) until you've named the 20 people.At the end of this, choose 5 people to do this.

My mother
My Father?
Jun Wei
Jian Ming
Li Qi
Shu Qin
Hui Qi
Ashwini
Serene
Weiwei
Lyria
Jane
Yi Jia
Alex
Yee Ting
Michelle
Wei Fen
Joanne
Min Xuan
Angeline

1) How did you meet #14:[Alex]

Last year during Sec 1 Orientation

2)What would you do if you didn't meet #1:[ My Mother]

I don't think i would even be in this world typing this thing???

3)What if #9:[Serene] and #20:[Angeline] date

erm........it would be disastrous, terrifying, unbelievable, incredible, but maybe it's possible???? lol, just kidding.......

4)Would #6 and #17 (stead??):[Shu Qin & Wei Fen]

doubt so, they would prefer someone of the opposite sex i think??

5)Describe #3:[Jun Wei]

hmmm, smelly, rude, short, fat, but sometimes, really can make you happy......likeable person still

6)Describe #8:[Ashwini]

loud voice, not short not long hair, a good companion, good in studies, resposible,emphathatic??

7)Describe #7:[Hui Qi]

incredibly long hair, extremely good in studies, polite, humourous, ok.....i seriously will describe better in chinese........

8)#12's family members:[Jane]

so sorry, i really don't know.....

9)What would you do if #18 confesses to you that he likes you:[Joanne]

i think i would faint right on the spot i think

10)What languages does #15 speak:[Yee Ting]

English, Chinese and outer space language????haha....just kidding

11)Who is #9 going out with:[Serene]

don't know.......ask her yourself.......

12)How old is #16:[Michelle]

fourteen, 14

13)When is the last time you spoke to #13:[Yi Jia]

before school ends??

14)Who is #2's favorite bands/singers:[My Father]

don't think he goes into these things.

15)Would you ever date #4 :[Jian Ming]

no, he's my brother for goodness sake!!!!

16)Would you ever date #1:[My Mother]

no, she's my mother, we would have a better relationship if we stay the way we are now...

17)#19 single:[Min Xuan]

yes, should be, but i think she would find someone soon with her looks......

18)What's #10's last name:[Weiwei]

surname? Fam

19)Would you ever be in a relationship with #11 :[Lyria]

haha, unless i become a boy, friends would be ok for now.....

20)Which School is #3 in:[Jun Wei]

CCKSS

21)#6 live :[Shu Qin]

Fajar, Segar, around there.....Bt Panjang Area

22)What is your favourite thing about #5 :[Li Qi]

she's emotional, fun to be around with,treats you as equal as everyone else and she's MY cousin!!

23)Have you seen #2 naked:[My Father]

erm....shouldn't be????? lol

Five people who should do this:

Shu Qin (if you have the time)
Jun Wei
Jian Ming
Hui Qi
Ashwini

And everyone who wants to do this....

2006-11-11T05:47:00.000-08:00

the higher chinese test is over, well, i did what i can, so just hope i can get in, then if cannot, well, just hope for the best loh.

ok, so let's start with important things, to everyone out there, please do not contact me or anything from the period of 13th november 2006 to 16th november 2006 as i will be abroad, and yah, the only place that i would go will be.............yah, Genting. so just wait until 17th then tell me anything that involves me lah.

sian lah, posting results is on 14th november, and well, i can't see them, so it's like how i give the book list. aiya, still need to wait......

ok, to more recent things. the performance that i had been going on about, is erm.....to be honest, quite disappointing. ok, so , it's cool to be wearing a tutu and performing something that is well, enough of a standard, but the attention that we are getting is like......aiya, it's all too complicated. furthermore, because of this performance thing, i am like currently going to be broke. for goodness sake, we are helping you by performing and we still have to pay?????

ok, getting naggy and i still haven bathed, so well, that's the most recent updates of my life....(like who want to know about my life????) yah, and oh, haven changed my piano time, but can't seem to contact my teacher. tomorrow then see lah.

hmmm, tomorrow's the performance, so wish myself luck for the performance, appeal of higher chinese and that it would not rain during the days that i had mentioned......

Making everything seem more complicated then it seemed, it's all over.....

2006-11-08T06:12:00.000-08:00

i am very tired, just came back from ballet practice at Geylang.....tired sia, but it seems that we are still not up to standard. haish, our moves are not coordinated and well, we don't seem that well as it's like a very tiring dance, and we get tired easily and don't dance that well towards the end. well, no offense, but well, as angeline says, translated from chinese, the boat will become straight when it reaches the end.

i am scared, for the higher chinese selection test on friday. it's like not that easy lah, i don't suppose appealing for higher chinese will be that easy. and well, i don't write good essays and my comprehension is like when i am lucky, will i do well, same thing again, the boat will become straight when it reaches the end. tks to those who wished me luck and who wished me luck in their hearts. lol.

well, holidays are not boring, cause it's not boring if i am doing homework ( don't worry, i haven even started anything. argh!!!!) yah, after all this dance thing than i can start cause it's like not enough time to do anything when i am like having practice. so i will just wait a few more weeks and try to finish all in a few weeks.

so, december will be coming and orchard road had already started putting their decorations and playing christmas songs. yah, singaporeans are kiasu.

Looking forward to uploading photos......duh...

2006-11-04T06:53:00.000-08:00

back again to bloggging, realised that actually holidays are boring, so many hws to do also yet don't have the mood to do. especially when it's like the questions are things that you had not learnt yet. brrrr, can't stand it lah, let's hope i finish everything by december so at least i can still enjoy one whole month of holiday.

actually tons of things happened these few days, resulting in me not having that much of the time and mood to do my hws. yet, they are too long-windy, so i better don't say anything lah. just hope that everyone will enjoy their holidays and continue with their lives.

there are not np trainings in the holidays, aiya, why np so slack, then when we all become ncos, we don't know the drills, we don't know the songs, the cheers, very ma lu one leh. even if we are moving to the new campus, at least have some trainings like during the june holidays lah. aiya, really very disappointing. really liked np a lot loh.

haha, shouldn't keep everyone bored about how much i like np. haha, ok, enjoy the holidays everyone, and work towards your dreams......

Looking back to the old days, i want to eat....

2006-11-01T05:08:00.000-08:00

haven been blogging for a long time. tons of things had happened. i had lost my voice and it's now on the way to recovery, i am back from ATC, not a very exciting camp, a disappointing camp that i did not really enjoy, went to the farewell party and ashwini's house, and the performance thing is getting really fine.

the camp was as i said earlier, very disappointing. there were lack of activities and games and was all a bore. no offence, but i think that if we had more activities, the camp would have been better, but nonetheless, we learnt a lot, and that is a very great thing, the ability to make sure that we learnt something from the camp.

the farewell part was ok, fun, yah, i enjoy being with my classmates. i will really miss them but we still have to move on with our life. haish, nvm, i believe we would still stay in- touch.

ashwini's house was too fun, watching MI-III, ice princess and eating the curry. yum, really enjoyed eating everything and the things that we had done. the whole feeling that we had at her house was marvellous expecially when it started to rain. hope i can still go to her house some other time.

the dance steps are going on brillantly and well, the tutus are being made and well, hope i don't make a fool out of myself on the performance day. wish me luck for my higher chinese test next week.

2006-10-26T06:16:00.000-07:00

this is my new blogskin and well, it's not that great, but it's the cursor that sort of attracted me lah. tks to izza who helped me with the colour that was too bright and being an inexperienced little person, well, i need to depend on others. tks again izza.

there's camp tomorrow and it will end like on sunday. so, i am leaving the comfort of my home for the eerie campsite at pulau ubin. lol, anyway, going to throughly enjoy myself at the camp, hope i don't make any serious mistakes lah

so, i think my overall class and level rank is not that bad, doubt i can get the edusave cash lah. it's like so difficult among the so many clever people in our class. hmm, really need sweets now. fretting over everything about the camp. let's go through my lines

" eeyeh, what's this? they shouldn't keep this kind/type of childish things in the np room"

that's all, long right? haha, lol, hope we don't perform that badly during the campfire.

Looking forward to the next blogskin, am i mental or what????

2006-10-25T08:59:00.000-07:00

good morning everyone, cause it's like 12am which is why today should be thursday. nvm. did a lot of things since i came back from the so-called ballet lesson. passed the np msg, get lots of ppl to do the npcc test about the crime prevention, did the test (or course), did the total defence essay, blogged(lol), packed school bag and well, should be packing the camp back tomorrow night after np. oh yah, and done the streaming thing. i opted for triple (i mean even if i cannot go, still can appeal lah)

there's like so many things to be done and so little time to finish it all, and now i am cutting into my sleeping time. haven even done my theory and well, there's tons of things i had not done, but let's just leave it as it is.

har, so tired lah, shall not blog too much, in case of the numerous spelling mistakes that i make (lol) har, going to sleep now, currently still alive, so don't worry, haha, erm...yah, that's all

Can't seem to concentrate on that

2006-10-24T06:44:00.000-07:00

feeling very tired, can't find the desired blogskin and the total defence essay is only half done. there's a sought of dance practice again tomorrow night and my poor butt and legs are yelling in agony. haish, also missing the practice with the teacher on friday because of my camp and it's the last practice too. argh!!!! i will surely mess up everything on the performance day.

yes, ATC's coming and i sure am looking forward to it. but i am scared of everything, and nothing seems to be done well, like that blogskin and the essay. the camp is the only thing that i can look forward to and well, although there are currently no exams, choosing of the various streams is also getting to me. i should and must choose tomorrow or i would not have another time.

time passes too quickly for me. i can't bear it anymore. i feel myself getting further and further away from the outside world, nothing can be done to correct it anymore. sometimes, i wonder, what if........

there's piano lesson tomorrow, and though i have a marvellous teacher, i don't really look forward to it. just want to sleep away everything, i am tired of bring tired.

The CRACK sound of the joints

2006-10-22T07:13:00.000-07:00

Friendship is such a simple yet significant thing. i can't really describe how friendship does to one and how important it is to one. i just want to say that friendship among people is the most amazing thing that can happen ever.

A BIG THANK YOU to Shu Qin who helped me in whatever that i do, and even we disagree, i know that she cares about me and will always be there for me. As for Angeline, Xin Yu and MinXuan, tks a lot for believing so much in me, i will try my best and not disappoint all of you.

and of course everybody in the world who are my friends, i don't know why i am suddenly talking all about friendship which is actually quite a sensitive topic, but all the same, life without friendship is tough, even if you have love, you have family, i am sure friendship would just be important to everyone.

haha, i am really not very good at words, i can't express myself that well, but i do try to tell others how i feel. brrrr, seems like i am stuck of what to say. words are funny, they are just words, they don't represent anything, and as the person in matrix revolution said, love is just a word, it's the connection that applies, similarly, what i am all saying now are only words and if your perspective is completely different from mine, you would never understand what i am talking about.

haha, i think i should end here, i have thousand of things to say, but it's difficult putting them in proper sentences, sometimes, the feeling that you are experiencing does not really have a suitable word to fit in.

i am feeling quite lost now. not really knowing what to do about tomorrow. haish, let's just see what tomorrow brings. the sun is still rising tomorrow, so just enjoy this day till its fullest, which is i think left only, to sleep. haha, lol.

Mesmerised by the connections

2006-10-20T20:30:00.000-07:00

there's coporal promotion test today, i think i did ok and chances of passing should be possible. haish, my tent pitching is so lousy lah, can't even peg a peg. argh!!!!! i am so irritated now. there's a so-called dance practice tomorrow and my mother actually allowed me to go, and cause the time of my piano practising is supposed to be during the time of the practise. so i was like saying ok, i will practise in the morning. and then due to the fact that i woke up late and my laziness, i didn't practise. now my mother is like angry cause i didn't practise and don't let me go. haish, who ask me to be so lazy.

yah, i know everything is my actions that asked for it, who ask me, such a dumb person. argh!!! can't stand lah. all the others all going then i not going like so out like that. ok, so playing the piano is important, but then this thing also is important right. don't really get it, why can't i go to this thing then play the piano in the night. not that i will not play right? sometimes i really wonder, is learning so many things really an advantage? learning the piano means sacrificing most of my time practising the piano and learning ballet means that when these types of other chances of learning more presents itself, i am not able to go. should i just quit everything and just concentrate on my studies?

however, i am not a quitter. i am someone who do things that i am good at. and personally i don't think i do very badly at dancing and the piano, but sometimes, things just don't go my way. if i can just go back into time, i would have practised the piano, knowing the bad consequence of not playing. haish, i am so sad.

well, i don't think i am going to try to persuade my mother to let me go. i am not someone who likes begging others, so maybe i will try some other methods, and if it doesn't work, i would have to forgo this thing and just completely forget about this. haish, i am so envious of my friends.

Can't keep the jealousy and anger out of my heart, such a dumb person i am.

2006-10-19T07:58:00.000-07:00

tomorrow's the coporal promotion test, hope i pass lah, then no need to take retest, hope my uniform is up to standard and i don't start saying gibberish commands during the test. let's pray for all of us.

lol, har......had been staying back all week for NPCC, finally, being in NP, is showing its powers, we would have to stay back in school for so many days now instead of the usual training on tuesday only. whew, really very tiring and no time to do everything and my that stubborn left boot just refuses to shine. argh!!!!!

so tired am i that i haven even written the letter of appeal for higher mother tongue. haish, only need 2-3 marks only then no need to go through so many troubles and procedures and i might not even be accepted loh. haish, nvm lah, who ask my chinese's standard not high enough, everytime the chinese tests all score so lousy.

school is just too boring lah, sit there, no teacher, nothing to do, book also so boring. haish, also so difficult to sleep, always, there are some irritating noises around( i am not saying the noises of the class, but of all those unneccessary noise that always seems to be present in the air). if this goes on, i don't know i will go crazy or what. luckily, there are only like 4 school days to endure. let's hope again that there will not be too many holiday assignments. muahahaha, then i will be so free.

the time is late and a new day is starting soon, better get some sleep or i wouldn't be able to think properly for tomorrow's coporal promotion test. wish me luck everyone. tks!!!!

abandoning all other hopes

2006-10-17T08:03:00.000-07:00

haven been blogging regularly though there are like so many things to say. but i will just forgo them cause i am really feeling very tired now. yawn*

haish, exams results are out today and ok i am quite ok with my marks except for my science which i really hoped to get an A1 but no, chinese which i hoped to get a B3 but no and maths which i really hoped to score well but no. haha, yah, i am greedy, i should be satisfied with my results but seeing how everyone had done, haish, i am so disappointed with myself.

haha, however, look at the bright side everyone, the sun haven set, basically, i am extremely pleased with my geog even if it is not that high. cause i used to get a 6 infront but now i got like exactly 80 for the SA, which really is surprising. haha, i am opting for geog next year which is also really surprising seeing how i had been disliking this subject and vowing not to choose this subject. well, people do change.

yawn* again, i am yawning, i am really tired but i don't really want to sleep though it does sound inviting. i really want to keep typing and saying all my problems out but of course blogs are meant to be seen by everyone so i can not really type ALL my problems and feelings here, i just have to keep them in my heart.

not really changing my blogskin soon, the choosing of a new blogskin is difficult as i just can't make my decision. well, we will know soon when the time comes. until then stay tuned to my next blog. haha, LOL, just kidding.

People make mistakes, accept everyone and give them a chance to start anew.

2006-10-12T04:50:00.000-07:00

2nd day of marking day

same thing, feeling bored and lazy. organised my maths file but not really filing everything. just finished the home econs evaluation and printing it later on. hmm, tomorrow there's my piano lesson and i was thinking when to bind the evaluation, feeling like going out later to bind. see first lah.

really nothing to talk about, haish, actually holidays are a bit boring, come to think of it, i have nothing to blog about, which is a bit pathetic. today is thursday, weekends are coming, then can really sort of relax. don't know why,you just seem super relaxed during the weekends.

mopped the kitchen floor today. haha, i think mopping the floor is what i do when i am home during the weekdays. duh, haha, ok, not looking forward to monday, there's a talk on econs and i am a bit interested but i think i will still take geog cause i want to be a pilot. still got the agony of knowing my results, if it's good, then good lah, but if the results are not as expected, haish, not looking forward to this.

Shampoo reminds me of GENTING

Conditioner reminds me of HQ......

2006-10-11T06:24:00.000-07:00

First day of marking day, let's see what i had done

went to Lot 1 today, to photocopy my Brahms book and buy the maths file and some stickers for the evaluation but looking carefully at them, i am seriously considering not using the stickers. went to the pasa malam to look at the wrapping papers, and saw that the UNO only cost like $2!!!! when mine is like $10+. i was like why the UNO so cheap. grrrr.....

finished my theory today, don't know why suddenly have the urge to finish them as quickly as possible especially when these theory questions are most advised to be done like 1-2 questions a day. nvm, i did all 7 questions and my head is so blur now

basically, finished reading 3 storybooks today, starting on my home econs evaluation and filing of the maths file tomorrow. can't do anymore things today, currently waiting for bedtime. haha, watched the cooking show today. you all know the Jamie Oliver show which is on 11.30am on channel 5? well, it's over and this new show, also a cooking show shows a chinese instead, and i think his name was something Martin Yan. haha, then at the end of the show, he says " If Yan can cook delicious recipes, so can you"

i mean, erm, why he use Yan and not Martin? and the whole phrase is like so weird. hahaa, lol, nevermind. and do you believe it??? i mopped the floor today, almost all by myself. haha, and i think it's quite clean lah. oh, and yesterday's was Taiwan's national day, all the dao bian thing. dunno what really happened, must ask my aunties about it.

Phantom of the Opera - April 7, 2007

2006-10-10T04:05:00.000-07:00

Punctuation is an amazing thing. for example, if i say Boo, in you mind you would thing ok, this word is boo, pronouncing the oo sound carefully, but if i say Boo!, your mind would be alerted? as in Boo! is different from Boo because of the way you say it. the exclaimation mark completely changes the meaning too.

ok, so that's all a bit irrelevant. so, today's the last paper, 3 marking days + the weekends awaits me before i have to face my terrible fate. i am going to throughly enjoy these 3 days after doing my theory, home econs evaluation and the maths file. until then and the holiday starts, i would still be a caged bird, waiting to spread my wings and fly when the holidays come.

hmm, the maths paper 2 was easier then paper 1, but it's still difficult, will i get an A1? doubt so, with my standard which is dropping day by day, i don't know how i can get pass maths in future. haish, i really need to concentrate on other things, say optimisstic.

now that the exams are over, there are even lesser things to say. anyway, enjoy yourselves everyone. go crazy and let go of all the stress that had been bugging us for the past few months.

The agony of waiting and waiting.